Chapter 37~~WiLL It Be LasT LonGeR

Will it be last longer?tis the question always come out from my mind and also killed a lot of bacteria inside my brain..i don know why i got such feeling and question maybe i am thinking too much~~it is DD's word no more can believe?the word believe always got the lie in the middle of it..i scare when i reached the limit of my tolerance i will give up for tis relationship..it not tat easy wanna to build up a strong and tight one..yesterday nite i was insomnia very early around 9 plus i odi laid on the bed but until 11 plus i still haven sleep..when DD call me on 10 plus actually i still haven sleep..he asked me whether wanna come n meet me or not..i asked him no need to come coz the day was kinda late later he need to go bek jb again..that was only the thing i can do on tat time wont forced u to come over..maybe it juz started no longer time..we are only together 2 months plus until today..i think still not tat stable like other couple..the 1st thing now i really don have the confident to believe DD coz u always make me dissapointed and always spoil my dream~~always breach of promise..i always keep on remind u if u had 100% confirm only u can promise to me but u don have 100% confirm u don do promise...coz i really hate ppl always breach the promise it will make me lost the confident to believe anymore..it was very serious thing for a couple..if don have the believe between each other u think the couple still can continue for the couple life?sure will always keep on guessing and suspecting each other..i don like to guess and suspect if the problem really come i will choose to let it go tat mean i will give up 1st coz i don think i will studborn on it~~it was not good for both of us~~i still doing some observation coz of i lack of believe~~i changed a lot on my own character don know why suddenly had the 100% changing i don like myself become like tat~~how can i bek to the previous cool cool girl?i was receiving DD's call when i was inside the bathroom..i missed his call for a few times when the fourth time only i pick up the call..i think he was a bit impatient tat time the tone of speaking also set to a bit higher...he said how come i can speak so loudly to him it is i was angry for something?actually it was nothing be happened juz i too suspicious tis and that..tat y make me nearly crazy..he said don wanna come n meet me odi if not later need to c my black face better than he juz stay at his office then he cut off the line..1st time DD talked so loud to me feel so sad..after a min he called me bek and said sorry to me coz juz now his speaking tone was too high...my tear drop again~~sigh..how come i always like to cry?am i too weak and no use..juz a few minor thing can easily make me cry but all the unhappy thing gone when i meet DD.....