Chapter 95~~GeT Out fRoM SaDnEsS

I was really really feel very tired n sad yesterday~~i think a lot a lot when we were together..wut relationship we r?can u tell me clearly?Like yesterday u were bz for the work until 8 plus didnt received any calls from u n my sis keep on calling me asked me tml where should they waited..they will asking like tat coz they scare later will give u trouble so better asked 1st to save more time..even 1 sms or call oso don have everything didnt plan or arrange properly..end up i was calling u..really shocked when u told me u r in masai tat time coz i nv heard u said u will be going there for wut u r going there..i tot u should be meet up me tonite for tml stuffs..not much thing u talked to me not more than 5 mins u quickly cut off the line..i was a bit angry about tat..start to think bek our relationship it is really like other ppls always live in happily?tat day u didnt contact me whole day i tot u will call me late of the nite or sms me but then u don have...wait until tml u only told me tat u didnt call me coz u were sick the whole day after medicine u sleep whole nite...can u tell me which couple like tat..if one of them sick the other side don know or didnt go n visit and take care each other...if other ppl know tat wut will they think?still remember last time when u suddenly headache on late nite n went in hospital..wait u came out from hospital only tat i know u went in hospital...u told me b4 if u didnt call me i oso can call u up..ya i know tat but u know quite a few times i called u but u oso ask me to wait later u call me bek coz u r bz tat time..tat y i don like to call u coz will make me dissapointed rather than i juz waiting..tml is our 11 months to be together..consider quite a long time odi my fren juz knew eachother 1 year odi married..but then i still nv meet ur family members and nv go ur workshop b4..if i tell other ppl sure ppl will say how come so weird sure got problem..only 2 reasons i can find it up..whether is juz wan to play play only or is those tat relationship cant be open to public..i feel unsecured and less confident to u tat y lasttime for wut i oso wan to check ur msg in phone n i always suspecting tis n tat...for wut i do like tat is so tiring n suffer...i always think u keep something tat don wan to let me know..i nv tell ppl about tis problem i always keep it in my mind even though ppl asked me i oso didnt wan to tell them my own problem..my fren was asking b4 do u meet ur bf family odi...i really feel unwilling to answer the question but she is my fren so i juz told her haven and quickly change to other topic i really scare later she asked me y i don know how to answer her...bz working is not a excuse for no time to make a call...make call only 1 min will do but u got time to smoke and no time to make a call wut's a excuse?bf or gf is not for to spend the free time or loneliness...if like tat wut the diff between animal and human?when u told me u were sick yesterday i feel so guilty to be ur gf cant even go n visit or take care of u...not i don wan, do u will let me to do so?everytime i said wan to go ur workshop sure got smt happen if not u will give me a lot of excuse..look like got something hide in the workshop tat cant let me c it...not juz 2 to 3 times odi..i cant even use my 10 fingers to count it out...if u really wan me to find u tat time u only will ask me to stop or wait in kranji mrt nv let me to go ur workshop..like ur family meeting oso like tat i said wanna to follow u go there but u will ask them to change the date..u don know how my feeling when u do so..still remember last time u brought ur customer to go kl, u told me so hope can brought me go together coz the car seat was full so u cant do tat..but now i think u so hope i can don follow u juz like tat day ur penang customer..u brought them to spore flyer flight u told me u didnt go out with them but how do u spend ur free time when u were waiting for them...i didnt received any calls from u tat nite oso..everytime when i think it bek really make me feel sad n hurt..at least cry 1 month 1 time when i was jogging, swimming, sleeping or working...make me bcome weak..we don have much chances in our life once u miss the chance it would become bek again or v less chance for u to have 2nd chances...we need to learn how to treasure ppl tat around us..don wait until lost only know to regret...