Monday, July 20, 2009
Chapter 21~~worrying
i was getting mad again with him on last friday..wut was happening until i always get mad on him..i also feel like nowadays i like to angry and get moody...can someone tell me why?i don like myself like tat juz small thing odi feel angry..i done something when he don wanna to fetch me bek on friday coz the day was kinda late n i odi feel sleepy and tired..when i asked him to fetch me bek he was telling me he don wan coz wanna someone to accompany him then i was waiting c when he juz wanna to fetch me bek without keep on remind him coz i don like keep on remind for something if u know my character u will know tat..when i wan for something i muz get it maybe tis called studborn..a few mins later my 'fire' start on then i direct open the car's door and get out from the car..i walked alone to the end of the west coast park's resting area and juz sitting there play with my hp..i know on the way he called me for a few times but i don wanna pick it up..it is too 'ye man' and small gas sometimes i was thinking bek for my action it is i done the wrong way?i wanna share tis with my closer fren and they will telling me i wasn't doing wrong if he really care for me then he should always asked me to sleep early and fetch me bek early.. when he found me in resting place he hold my hand asked me to go bek..i know he was panic and worried tat time coz i know his character scare i get mad on him..i still angry tat time but when reaching my house he will receiving a called from jb job site..something was happening for the job so he need to rush bek to jb again suddenly my heart was softing at the same time odi forgive him for everything coz i know he will getting more stress if i continue angry on him i don wanna bcome his 'beg' too heavy for him to carry..as promised he will fetching me to jb after my cycling in east coast with my frens ..so when 5pm plus i was calling him asked him to fetch me on 6.15pm and i bought some snack~~popiah and sugar cane juice for him i know he always will feel hungry on tat time..he asked me to help him to buy the extra strong panadol again..i was worrying him coz i odi told him for many times cant be always depend on the panadol asked him to do the body check up but he always told me no time to do so..DD can u please listen to me for tis time..it is regarding for ur health and i do such thing juz for ur own good i don wan a sick bf.. i wanna u give me a secure to become ur gf not always worrying for something...he was late on tat day when i was waiting alone in the east coast park feel a bit angry again i know he was jammed in the traffic i need to understand for him and the distance also not the short..but i think i odi called him and told him earliest he should came here on time..my gf told me actually the guy should wait for the girl not the girl shoud wait for the guy..i was so boring while waiting for him no place for me to go so i juz find a seat and saw the ppl playing roller blake there..called my god sis to chit chat with her since she is the one tat i can share my story..after finished chatting with her i will feeling better..on the way i got nth to chat with him..he saw my look odi know i was angry and in bad mood he got asked me for a few times it is i still angry with tat incident i reply him no..juz feel very tired coz he odi make me angry for 2 times.Long time i didnt do tat in front of my fren and not tat small gas but after i become his gf look like always feel tat..it is i changed odi or no enough sleep for me to make me like tat..i hope it is juz temporary i will return it bek very soon..i was telling him my feeling, he was understanding on it and promised me wont do the same thing to make me mad again..he said wanna go out with his fren for some drink i said if u wan go juz go la coz long time u also didnt meet up ur fren odi later all ur frens will gone and forget u but he was asking me to accompany him..end up he cancel for the date and stay at my sis's bf house..i fried 3 eggs for him since he only eat popiah for his dinner i don think he will feel full..luckily my fried egg skill still can use de juz i forget to take the photo to prove tat..he said wanna do mask so i went my sis's room to take and tried to apply to his face and i also do it for my own..after 20 mins i helped him to tear off the mask..he look like too tired odi slept coz 2 days never sleep odi sure tiring..i don wan to disturb him so i bek to my sis's room to sleep there..when around 2am smt my sis heard the sound someone was knocking our room door so she went to open n see and my sis called me wake up and told me DD look like cant sleep in tat room maybe too hot.so i went out n saw him juz sit on the floor outside our room..i went and asked him it is u cant sleep he told me he feel very hard wan to breath asked me muz go to c the doctor now..i shocked and feel a bit scary~~he asked me whether can accompany he went clinic or not?no need to ask sure i will follow him coz i also worried wont let him alone..he started vomit and cant even walked properly..if like tat how come he still can drive so i asked my sis fetched him to go to clinic...he told us tat skudai have 1 clinic open 24 hours while on the way we saw the police checking so we asked the police whether nearby there have any hospital or not..coz he bcome weaker and weaker i know he took a lot of pils of panadol..when reached the clinic the door was put open but then locked odi so i knock the door the nurse was telling us it is urgent and serious case the doctor cant help asked us sent him to hospital but then my sis and i not familiar with the jb road luckily he still can teached us how to reach the hospital so direct went to icu..when reached there he really cant stand up and walked properly so the nurse there was using the wheel chair to help him to go inside..we cant go in the room juz can waiting him outside so after payment need to wait for the doctor also...the nurse was calling me to go in the room asked me wut happened to him so i was telling her tat he took too many pils of panadol.He was feeling very difficult to breath look like wanna stop it..i helped him to move from wheel chair to bed coz he said very cold..the nurse said bed there have blanket u can use it so u wont feel so cold..the nurse there v loussy never helped ppl to do so i need to help him for myself..i was going bek to the waiting area and need to wait for the queue number for doctor..when reached the number and the nurse was calling the number..i was going in again but the doctor only allowed 1 person go in..after finished checking the doctor said everything was smooth so juz gave some medicine for him..so went bek home nearly 5am odi..i was accompanying him the whole day..he cant sleep peacefully look like a lot of stress and thing to think when he sleep coz keep on dream and dream talking..scary le sometimes look like wan to kill ppl i was asking him when he wake up ..i saw him like tat very pity le my heart feel sour and sad..i was crying on tat day..cant really control myself the tear was coming out automatically..he shocked y suddenly i was crying it is i am still angry on him..i was asking him it is u were too stress with ur work or wut...i think i am independent enough to handle everything but i am wrong when saw him like tat..what can i do for him to help him come out from the painful time?long time i didnt cry..1st time i am crying juz bcoz of someone..he asked me promised him something..never to leave him if everything happened..but 1 thing i can proved tat i odi feel love with DD if no love i also wont cry for him tis the question he was asking me yesterday but then i didnt give him a satisfied answer..wan to tell DD i love u~~
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