Chapter 23~~OpTiMiStiC

Yesterday i got sense that something was happening..my worrying and guessing was correctly~~Early in the morning DD was bek from jb and called me tat time..after tat we were chatting in msn..he sent me the left of the photo tat we took in west coast~~he still look happy and normal~~i know later on he need to take his medical report..i know he was worrying about the result juz he don wanna to show in front of me..Actually after lunch i was no mood to continue my work i got planned to call DD asked for the report result but i don dare to do so maybe will disturbing DD..when the time nearly 5pm i need to knock off from office..something was appearing in my mind..it is something happened on DD coz he will always contact with me when nearly 5pm whether he will be coming to fetch me or not but today he did not do so~~i was starting to worry..as usual i was going for jogging..whole jogging i was making some guessing and keep on console myself maybe DD was busy for his work until forget to call me..later he finished it will be coming and meet me up..when i was going bek from jogging i saw DD's car in my house downstair..i was happy when saw the DD and asked him had he took the report and how was it but he was skipping my question without answering me..we went chit chatting in my house downstair for a while coz i juz bek from jogging also cant direct took bath need to take rest~he did not mentioned even 1 word of the report..i am sure tat something muz happened odi although he did not show his sadness in front of me coz don wanna i am thinking and worrying too much for him~~he keeps on chasing me went up for bathing and took all the clothing..he don allowed i washed my clothing by myself..he said it was too tired for me coz i need to work and exercise odi feel tired some more need to wash own clothing..actually i don feel any tiring coz it only took a few mins to finished it so DD plz don worry about me~~DD suggested to have the taiwan porridge in bukit timah there coz we cant even think for other food that we want to eat~~every night DD also asked for my opinion..for me i took any food at least can make me full except rice and some kind of meat~not really need to go to restaurant i still prefer tat kind of mamak or 'da pai dang' in malaysia which we can ordered a lot of foods and can eat it happily~~after dinner DD was asking me where i wan to go~i said don have so he brought me to the west coast park again~~on the way for our dinner tat time he odi started to ask me some question i odi feel so weird how come he asked me such question it is he wan push me to other ppl?While we were in west coast park tat time he was telling me the truth~~i am feeling happy and sad~~happy is tat finally he tell me the truth and his feeling and sad is tat he got the sick but then i don think it was a serious sick~~he said after he got the result then he was thinking a lot how to solve the problem..he is selfish wanna let me go and push me to the someone tat i don like..DD plz give me some freedom to choose and decide my own decision or way to go don juz leave me for someone..i am not stock can juz simply let u move here and there~~i am human got my own feeling too~if u really do so u will be sufering for whole life~i don think u can continue live happily without me..anyway i wont juz left DD alone to face the problem so DD u muz think optimistically everything will not be impossible..although ur sick don have any medicine can cure but then we juz work hard on it and tried to follow the doctor's advised~~i hope miracle will be appearing and DD can live happily don have so much stress~~god bless him..coz as i said god r fair to everyone~~no pain no gain~so DD muz feel appreciated for wut u have now~~at least u still got me to accompany u when u r in down mood or happy mood~~cheer up my bravo DD don simply to give up ur life~