Chapter 47~~4th MonTh aNniVeRsaRy

Happy 4th month anniversary~~we were 4 months together...DD, i really feel happy when i told u that i have been retrenched by my company then u direct asked me to wait for u and u will come over to accompany me..i said wanna go swimming but u don allowed me to do so...brought me to starbuck cafe have a long chat..i really feel touching when u talked to me i don know i am the important person in ur life now..i know u love and care me a lot..ask me don worry anything happen u will stand on my side...i am crying is not i am sad i really feel nothing when they asked me to stop work...juz my tear will automatically come out i oso don know y ...i need to be more strong cant always cry let DD worried...received a very warm and touching sms from DD tis morning 29.10.2009..a new day a new wish and dd give you all the best and all the good luck for my love gg in my life..i hope the time really can stop in this moment..i wanna cry again but what can i do is muz be strong enough i believe i can pass the hard time..god bless me....

Chapter 46~~BanGkoK tRiP

Finally we finished our 5 days 4 nights bangkok trip...tis trip really full of sadness, happiness,tearness, scareness...a really unforgetful trip too..1st and 2nd both of us was mad and in bad mood not tat happy then we planned to finish our trip early than wut we had booked..after think n think both of us settle the problem..everytime when we argue on something or angry sure i will think bek of our relationship it is our character is the same or should i continued for it..my tear will automatically coming out..i didnt have any experience on this before coz DD is the my 1st bf in my 25th years old life..really hope that our relationship will be last forever..i really wan to opologise to DD coz 1st day in bangkok i never think of his feeling tat what he said i am selfish but i am not deliberate wanna to do so..i am in the very very bad and angry mood when i walked bek to the hotel for twice...anyway when reached chatuchak i odi start to forgive DD when i saw he sweat a lot...although both of us also in angry mood but he still help me to take all the stuffs that i bought..wanna to say thank you to him, he really do a hard and tough job~~what ever i wanna to buy he also let me do tat..i know he also got a lot of things wanna to buy but then he juz wanna to save the money for me to buy my stuffs..toughing rite?anyway i am not tat selfish will spend the money sure i will buy something for DD too..he put all the money that he had change to me without keep some in his pocket...he really my superb DD~~:)..everytime when i angry sure he will come to me n say sorry no matter whose done wrong..i think i need to behave myself cant always do so~~sometimes really i am the wrong person but when i am in the angry mood i will not think who r right or wrong..whatever is the other party wrong i am the rite 1....look very hegemony like a queen everybody need to listen to me~~luckily after the 2 days we will save the time for the left happiness day~~we went for the underworld water for half day...DD asked mme don write too many sadness thing here coz he said everytime if any sadness thing happened sure i will make it long but if happiness things only i write for a few sentences so this blog i tried to write in both...hope that DD will happy when he read it~~

Chapter 45~~MaD On DD

Y i write the title as mad on DD??Wut he had done until i get mad on him?actually i really don like he is smoking..i odi tried to concession to let him smoking and he also promised me before will be cut down the smoking frequency..he wont be so obvious will smoking in front of my parent..yesterday i was proposed to him next time don wanna he smokes in front of me if i not do so i don think he can cut down the smoking frequency but then he said i cant do so coz he got smoking addiction not so easy can stop it..but wut i want is juz cut down 1st coz i know it was really difficult wanna to stop it..my father is an example coz last time he said wanna to stop it end up also failed..i really understand for it but can u cut it down?not tat i wan to control u..i do tis thing only for ur own good..myself also don like someone to control me so i also wont do tat..wut is the main reason?tat was i am worrying~~yesterday on the way bek from bukit indah jusco i was mad on him coz we have an argue on tis issued so whole journey i didnt wanna talked to him until the sleeping time only he had the chance to talk to me personally..he said he will listen wut i am talking juz now will tried to do it so i was forgiving him but today morning he still do the same in front of me..i was very dissapointed don wanna to talk more on tis issued odi if not later sure will happen the same thing like yesterday...wut i can do is ignored it i don wanna to talk more odi~~wut u like to do u juz do nobody will control and stop u..even u wanna to smoke in front of my parent i also wot care so much for it coz it really unrelated to me..anything happened u juz can blame urself.....

Chapter 44~~HoLidAy MoOd

DD and me were waiting for the holiday now..everyday DD also countdown for it..too excited odi 1st time go oversea with DD~~happy right?i think DD has the same feeling as me...my DD was superb..y i said so?like wut he had said wutever i had mentioned to him sure he will say yes to me..last 2 weeks i was looking for the long jean pant from levi coz it is the time for me to grab a new 1..so i keep on asking DD to fetch me here and there coz i cant found any suitable 1 so keep on moving to look for it so pity him need to accompany me and drive me here n there...yesterday i juz bought a new pair running shoes for DD...i know he don wanna anyhow to spend much money on tat shoes coz he said juz a simple shoe will do no need a branded one but what i told him is for the shoe the quality is the main choice..if u choose a better quality sure ur feet will feel comfortable while u wearing it..so pls don save the money for it...i know the price is slightly expensive than the unbranded one but it can used for quite a long time not so fast can be spoil..anyway 'yi fen qian yi fen huo'..like wut u said asked me don buy a cheap quality clothing..

Chapter 43~~NeW MonTh

Another new month odi...today only my 1st blog in this new month..long time didnt update any blog here almost 1 week from the last blog i did..if today i still don wan to update here sure i will killing by DD but i think he also bz for his work and seldom will log in here..what was happening within a week?actually it was nothing special juz like previously life every nite also meet up with DD for dinner~~as usual weekend i was going to my sis's house in jb of coz my DD follow me too..last saturday i was off but DD need to work so early morning i odi wake up coz odi promised my sis wanna went jogging with them so i left DD and asked him to wake up later~~he was always forgetful coz his passport left in my beg didnt took it when he was going in to spore..so got no choice my sis was rushing for the time to go for working then dropped her in the custom..DD went bek to take the passport by himself..so sorry DD next time i should not took ur passport..i was going to do rebonding after tat...super long time i was spending in the salon half of the saturday gone~~after bek from work DD direct go salon to meet me up..he was too tired and fall slept in the salon~~some more i know sure he will feel hungry coz didnt took his breakfast and lunch~~waiting n waiting..finally my hair was done he was complaining that my hair cutting was ugly:( v bad my DD..but very happy also coz he was waiting me for more than 2 hours pity him~~lantern festival we juz eat the dinner together and went pasar malam after tat...of coz bought my favourite lekor..everybody also said tired so we bek home early..the next day we slept until 10am juz wake up for breakfast..after tat followed my sis went to the wedding shop to c their photo layout design..my sis them went to play the badminton so i asked DD to fetch me to cs coz i wanna to buy levi jean which last time i saw there..it was nice but then i cant found the same design odi:( so sad...wanna went for hair cut again coz my sis keep on complaining my hair look so weird don have the same dimension...as promised i was going bay bay with DD..juz have a walked there n met up my sis them for dinner after this~~

Chapter 42~~3 MonThS AnNiVeRsArY

Happy 3 months anniversary to both of us...so fast we were together in 3 months odi~~Last week we went back to my hometown..sitiawan coz DD wanna to attend his fren wedding dinner in pantai remis somewhere juz near sitiawan..so i took leave on fri and we went back by bus on thursday nite...my father was going to fetch us when we reached in sitiawan..happy~~ing finally i was in my sweet home~~my father brought us to eat for breakfast after that we bek home to have a snap coz really cant sleep well in the bus..not really comfortable for the bus seat too small for me~~around 10 plus we wake up and i helped my mum to cook for lunch~~after tat i asked DD to fetch me to pos office coz i wanna to renew my license and wanna perm the temporary hair for tonight dinner coz my hair was too messy~~oh gosh..too ugly for the hair look like aunty so i tight up the hair wanna make it become a bit straight bek..the time for us to go for dinner..actually is juz a normal buffet in the groom's house which is DD' fren..i heard DD said tonight he got a lot of frens will attending the dinner and all wanna c how DD's gf look like..DD got 1 fren in pantai remis last time when he knows DD got gf odi help DD to spread the news to whole pantai remis area tat y all his fren know he got gf odi~~all gave good comment on me~~yoyo happying~~the next day morning my father suggested wanna to eat bak ku teh in the shop tat we always go...DD said the bak ku teh was nice but the steam fish head was not so nice a bit smelling look like not tat fresh..overall the meal still ok~~after tat bek home took rest..too full odi so we skip our lunch so i brought DD went out walk walk around the sitiawan and lumut area..DD not allowed i went for jogging coz he said now we r in holiday so can i juz skip for it~~so i helped up my mum to cook for dinner after finished we went to pack our thing scare tml will be rushing if we didnt packed it tonight~~my bro bek on late of the day around 11.30pm actually he said odi date my cousin yum cha tonight but then i was lazy to go out some more tired so i canceled wanna to go out with them~~yesterday we took early morning bus 9am i brought DD to take the famous noodle in our kampung' kampuan' he said it was nice...luckily the bus we took bek to jb was comfortable, big and fast...5 plus we odi reached jb and my sis them still playing badminton tat time so we took cab bek to my sis's house by ourself...after bathing we went out to have our dinner..lunch we only took some bread coz on the way cant found anything to eat~~we have our dinner in food & tea in tebrau city which DD said wanna to go tebrau coz bukit indah jusco was too small nth can walked there...the night still early so we stopped in perling mall giant to buy some lantern~~~we played lantern in my sis's house remind me the childhood time we always do tat when the lantern festival coming~~

Chapter 41~~HoLiDaY..iNg

Last weekend i went holiday with DD...actually we planned to go on sat after i finished my work but then changed to sun morning..so saturday after finished working DD came fetch me n my sis too..after DD settled all his thing so we were heading to jb~~suddenly i was craving for the kfc i insisted dd to buy me for dinner..he was very tiring after bek from kfc~~while we were online~ing he started feel sleepy odi and he juz laid on the sofa~~yong sing was suggesting to have yum cha session coz he fell hungry odi..i did not go coz i am tired too wanna sleep early..i asked DD to sleep on bed coz i saw him sweat when he was laying on the sofa...he told me he was angry coz i didnt want to go baybay with him..not tat i don wanna go is juz tat DD said tired and doesnt said wanna go to baybay~~the next day morning after b'fast we were heading to kl..b4 that my sis them cant decided whether they wanna to go or not..1 of my sis wanna to go melaka so i was changing the plan while on the way to kl we dropped in melaka for a while..as scheduled we dropped in melaka wanna to have osme cendol and asam laksa there..but unexpected it was super heavy traffic jam nearly jammed there for 1 hour plus..DD was impatient keep on scolding and angry~~make all of us moody and all the happiness gone~~my sis said next time don wanna to follow him odi coz every time also like tat~~i really wanna talked and discuss tis thing with him..angry is not the way to solve the problem..even though u scold and angry traffic jam also cant bcome smooth~~i dislike DD everytime like tat juz a small minor thing odi start angry..i really don like..feel very unhappy also~~when we reached kl nearly 6.30pm..after check in hotel we went for dinner in klcc~~nando's whole way he didnt wanna talked to us..i also don wanna to talk more juz let him be~the next day morning after check out hotel i was suggesting wanna went sg wang so we had our lunch there~~DD said sg wang clothing not nice..he cant search for 1 shop even 1 pretty dress..coz i wanna bought a dress for his fren's wedding dinner..i know he was unhappy again when i finished bought the dress~he said actually he wanna brought me to some high class shopping centre but not sg wang~~coz he wanna bought me an elegant and glamous dress..the pricing is not tat important..my tear automatically drop down..he faster asked me don cry he was not scolding me~~i'm sorry about that...

Chapter 40~~GoD bLeSs DD

Pls hope the god can bless my DD...i know he was stress for something..coz now he was facing some problem which i also don know how to help him...i don have the ability to help me..only can give him my full spirit support..hope DD will pass the difficult time..don forget i always ur savior no matter wut ever problem sure you can settle it coz i also ur lucky star~~hehe...still got 2 days we can go holiday odi.yahoo so happy...DD wanna bring GG go holiday~~all unnecessary ppl don come n disturb or give DD headache and problem~~although ur family cant understand wut r u doing and don really take good care of u but DD u don be sad coz u always got still me care u and understand and support for wut u r doing now~~don worry and don care whatever ppl said on u~~we juz do something that we think that is right...

Chapter 39~~I'M aLoNeeeeeee

Lonely, i'm miss lonely~~ops!!!suddenly i got this song on my mind coz i am lonely yesterday..frens, siblings, DD all bz their things suddenly i am useless ppl..all leave me alone~~as promised i went fof the gown trying coz i promised my fren to be her make up model for the coming make up competition..all done by me alone from spore to jb and from jb to plaza pelangi..oh i miss the DD call on 10 plus in the morning but when i called him bek he was bz didnt pick up my call..when i reached plaza pelangi my fren was waiting me in the 5th floor outside the saloon..too big the gown for me my fren's teacher said it cant altered odi so she need to find someone to fit the gown..my sis was calling me when they are on the way bek to kl..at least still got someone can chit chat with me~~DD was calling me when i was bek to city square..bought some bread for tml morning bfast and planned to buy the hair band..went to chamelon stay there for more than half an hour coz i don know wut should i choose..too many of choices odi~~my stomach was hungry odi so what should i eat?sien + boring i need to eat and shopping for myself~~actually i do date my fren but she sms me said that no car to meet me up so no choice..finally my lunch i took the shin lin mee suam..my sis do suggested me to eat mcd but tis few week i quite often ate fast food so i don wanna to take it again..after that i was bek to spore..the day was still early so i planned to do as much as exercise i can to pass the time so that i got no enough time to miss someone~~miss DD wanna to call him but end up i canceled to make call coz i know he was bz for his work don wan to disturb him...i wan he fast fast finish the work then only he got a lot of time can accompanied me and bring me here n there~~i know he was bz but then he still come n meet me on saturday and accompanied me for the whole day shopping~~

Chapter 38~~SiCKkkkk

Finally GG fall in sick for few days..so sorry to DD coz i spoil your weekend cant go out with u..some more u need to take care of me so cant go out also pity DD...but i am happy really will feel that DD take good care of me coz whole nite cant sleep well coz of me..fever whole the nite n DD keep on wet the towel and put on my forehead..sorry again coz i promised dd will go to danga bay last sat after we wnt for pasar malam but then after dinner i sudden feel unwell odi so we need to cancel for the danga bay plan.DD really accompany me for tis few days although he was bz and tired need to travel in and out from spore i know DD was very tiring..thanks DD muaksssss....today is our 3 month anniversary which we know each other..don know how to say maybe it really a fate that can let us meet and know each other after that become a couple..look like a magic right?DD will be bz for tis coming few days so cant accompany me i need to find out the activities for myself...GG will miss DD for few days~sob sob~~~DD muz work hard for tis few days then the continuous week will be bz for entertain me..another thing i nearly forgot to mention here i am so sad n heart pain when i listened to DD's children time story..really don have a good memory as me..pity DD~~no wonder DD always dreaming when sleeping some more all r bad dream..hope DD really can put down all the passed story and start the new happy life~~

Chapter 37~~WiLL It Be LasT LonGeR

Will it be last longer?tis the question always come out from my mind and also killed a lot of bacteria inside my brain..i don know why i got such feeling and question maybe i am thinking too much~~it is DD's word no more can believe?the word believe always got the lie in the middle of it..i scare when i reached the limit of my tolerance i will give up for tis relationship..it not tat easy wanna to build up a strong and tight one..yesterday nite i was insomnia very early around 9 plus i odi laid on the bed but until 11 plus i still haven sleep..when DD call me on 10 plus actually i still haven sleep..he asked me whether wanna come n meet me or not..i asked him no need to come coz the day was kinda late later he need to go bek jb again..that was only the thing i can do on tat time wont forced u to come over..maybe it juz started no longer time..we are only together 2 months plus until today..i think still not tat stable like other couple..the 1st thing now i really don have the confident to believe DD coz u always make me dissapointed and always spoil my dream~~always breach of promise..i always keep on remind u if u had 100% confirm only u can promise to me but u don have 100% confirm u don do promise...coz i really hate ppl always breach the promise it will make me lost the confident to believe anymore..it was very serious thing for a couple..if don have the believe between each other u think the couple still can continue for the couple life?sure will always keep on guessing and suspecting each other..i don like to guess and suspect if the problem really come i will choose to let it go tat mean i will give up 1st coz i don think i will studborn on it~~it was not good for both of us~~i still doing some observation coz of i lack of believe~~i changed a lot on my own character don know why suddenly had the 100% changing i don like myself become like tat~~how can i bek to the previous cool cool girl?i was receiving DD's call when i was inside the bathroom..i missed his call for a few times when the fourth time only i pick up the call..i think he was a bit impatient tat time the tone of speaking also set to a bit higher...he said how come i can speak so loudly to him it is i was angry for something?actually it was nothing be happened juz i too suspicious tis and that..tat y make me nearly crazy..he said don wanna come n meet me odi if not later need to c my black face better than he juz stay at his office then he cut off the line..1st time DD talked so loud to me feel so sad..after a min he called me bek and said sorry to me coz juz now his speaking tone was too high...my tear drop again~~sigh..how come i always like to cry?am i too weak and no use..juz a few minor thing can easily make me cry but all the unhappy thing gone when i meet DD.....

Chapter 36~~WeEkEnD WiThOuT DD

Another weekend was passed~~tiring need to start work again..last sat we were going to sing k for the celebration of August fren's b'day.1st time i been there'da zui ba' the environment was not bad but then i still prefer sing k in neway..DD was fetching me to jb in the evening..he still cough badly.still don wanna to look for the doc..bad DD wanna make me worried about him again..i keep on forcing him to take the medicine coz if i am not doing that i don think DD will took it automatically..DD was making me angry last few day so i gave him a big punishment tat was bought me an iphone..he got no choice odi promised to buy it to me..thanks DD 1st~~tml DD cant accompanied to go everywhere coz he need to entertain his customer and need to bring them go around the msia..my sunday look like a bit weird coz 1st time DD didnt accompany me on sun i don know how i passed through..whole day juz follow my sis go here n there and went for badminton too..DD was calling me when i was in jusco~~actually he planned to bring his customer to melaka but then he changed his mind coz he said melaka seem like nth can do so he brought them to kl..he said he odi reached kl and will be went bek on nite time didnt overnight there..i was going bek spore by my fren's car..when i reached spore i planned to call DD wanna tell him that i was safely reached spore odi let him don worried for me but he didnt pick up my call~~after a while he was calling bek to me asked me it is i was missing him tat y i called him..i answer him no juz wanna to inform him i am safely reached spore..actually i do miss DD too juz i don wanna to tell him through the phone..DD sure will feel so weird coz he always complaining that i never wan to call him at least got something but yesterday i odi done so juz call for nothing~

Chapter 35~~2 MonTHs AnniVerSarY

The day that i muz remember full of sadness, dissapointed, all my confidence suddenly gone..how can i find them bek?can u tell me how can i do?yes i agreed as what u said i am selfish person always juz think of myself without think of other ppl feeling..i do really to work hard and think about how can i make u happy..i know u r hardworking and bz for ur work sometimes but i do planned to do a small gift or small surprise for our monthly anniversary..i tried my best to use all my creativity to think about wut i done every month..my latest finished small gift was photo scrap book which i planned and think for so long time only got tis idea to come out of tis thing..when i gave it to u..ur reaction was~~no feeling i think..the thank you also need i asked from u...result from that my hard work cant make u happy and surprise i am failed in this way~~now i odi feel lazy and don have such motivation to continue to do some small action or surpise or small gift..coz i think all my hard work juz will be a rubbish~~i am unhappy yesterday is not that u r late but is combined of a lot of things suddenly appeared in my mind..i think tis week my hormon was unbalancing..i can cry for three times within a week i really break my own record u know...i hate myself how come i can become so weak juz a small minor thing can easily make me cry...i wanna be more brave and strong..i told u wut is the reason that yesterday i will feel so upset: east coast, bangkok, swimming, yesterday...tis the 4 main incident..east coast ~tat day i was cycling with my fren in east coast when we rent for the bicycle i odi told u that the time i will finished..u said ok u will come over to fetch me on tat day if not mistaken it was 6pm or 6.15pm..when i finished it my fren's fren was fetching my fren bek home then my fren was asking me the question how come ur bf will let u wait alone here look like not gentleman.tat time i really don know how to asnwer her..u told me u r juz on the way and traffic jammed...u will reaching there more than 7.30pm..1st time fine i also don wan become so small gas juz coz of tis thing i angry u for so long time..juz forget it...2nd time when i was going bangkok with my sis..i odi told u the time that we will arriving in changi airport..when i called u..wut u answer me?u said oh u arrive odi ar ok i will going to fetch u now..if i not call tat time u still don wanna come to fetch us..3rd times tat day u asked me to wait for u..round 7pm u will be came over to fetch me so we can go swimming together..i said ok i will wait for u..but then u come on around 7.30pm u said u still need to return car to the owner..i was cancelling the swimming coz i don think we still can make it after u returned the car coz it was kinda late odi...yesterday u asked me to call u after i reached the hotel actually i was reaching there around 6pm but i forgot to call u ...when 7.15pm i juz called u and told u that i odi reached there..around 8.35pm the situation look like odi the time for us to go bek so i juz called u saying tat i wanna went bek odi asked u stand by..when nearly 9.15pm all my colls went bek odi and my boss wife also finished the payment so i don wanna disturb them so i asked them to go bek 1st coz i said u r juz around tis area v fast will reaching odi..so i called u again u said now u r on the way fetching ur customer bek to the hotel near the bedok area..so i said will wait u in the taxi stand there..i was boring and lonely waiting so i juz find some frens and called them chit chat~~1 min 1 min juz passed through end up i odi waited u more than 1 hr...u told me i didnt inform u early maybe half an hour before i am going bek but then u know tat 1 is my company dinner not tat i said wanna go bek then go bek i cant make the decision for it i need to follow all the ppls..i also scare that if i asked u come early then will be wait me for so long i don wan u wait so long for me...like prevoius time..u said wanna fetch me to jb after 1pm when i finished working u called me that u r juz near my house so i was rushing bek and quickly took some clothing and go down my house's downstair..when i called u for more than 3 times u didnt pick up..i waited n waited finally u called me bek said that still need 5 mins juz can reached..u know juz coz of u i simply pick some clothing and rushing to wait for u..i didnt took bath...tat time i also scare let u wait for me long time..tis also called selfish?can u teach me what i can do?really feel so hard, dissapointed and sad u know??i really don know wut i can do to make myself happy~i feel that u never put my word in ur mind..i keep on remind u for so many times but did u follow what i asked u to do?c the doc and take medicine have u done it?u juz flash bek ur memory i met u for so many times but got how many times is u wait for me and how many times u come on time?said wut wanna to make me happy everyday all bullshit cant even to do it...as what i said if u got 100%confirm then only u can make a promise if u don have 100% so pls don simply make a promise i hate the ppl that always make a promise but end up cant make or achieve it...u know tis will make me lost all my trust in u...u think i can still believe to what u said?i really hate tis kind of feeling i also wanna try to forgive u and make myself happy but my heart was really painful..yes u r right yesterday u r not going to play or wut juz coz of customer but then can u juz tell me early ask me to go bek myself?i am not forcing u muz come n fetch me..i admit i will feel dissapointed if u said u cant fetch me but at least better than i waited for so long..i am not tat kind of patient ppl...my patient had limit..i don like to wait..i wan tis word come out from my dictionary..i don wanna to wait for next time..i hate it..i hate it...u said sometimes u will forget that wut u had promised to me need i remind bek only u can remember..promise to me u also can forget then if longer a bit i think my face u also can forget..like promise to go anywhere i still can remind u but not all the things that i can remind u..something need urself to remember only have the meaning if need i remind u although finally u can done it but i also feel not meaningful odi..i also agree as what u said last sun incident tat make u feel that i really start to love u more..after tat incident i also realised i am really love u if i don love u i also wont care for the msg..u know i am trying and work hard to build up my confidence, love and trust on u..but u keep on to destroy it~~i really feel dissapointed~i will trying to make myself happy so pls be don worry i will be fine after tis..i need to keep my mood and hormon balance bek..i cant continue like tat juz wanna to express my feeling~~i hope that u do understand~~

Chapter 34~~NiGhT SaFaRi

As promising, DD was bringing me to night safari yesterday..although he was very tired when he came to fetch me up in swimming pool there..i also think that it wask inda late odi planned to cancel asked him to go on the other day but then he insisted wanna to go on tat day coz promised to someone odi don wanna to change again..finally DD was going to achieve his promise to me~~well done DD..i reached there around 8 plus can saw the show which was juz started not longer time..it was some show juz same like the cowboy village 1 which the adoriginal play the fire wood~~quite nice show..after the show we headed to take the train~~not tat special and interesting for the night safari as my expectation a bit dissapointed but luckily DD was going with me..after the night safari the day was kinda late nearly 10 plus DD was bringing me to eat the taiwan porridge..yum yum~~DD was cough again..a few days odi still cant recover maybe DD need to stop smoking for temporary coz if cough DD still continue smoking it will make it worst~DD always forgot to take the medicine that i bought always need i keep on remind repeating only that he will remember that..i know the taste was bad but no choice la..like chinese sentence' bad taste good medicine'..Early morning i odi received call from him..he started to make report to me..he said he was happy coz i started to love and care him more..even though he strike the toto also not tat happy~~DD read my blog in the morning and he said sorry to me coz the last sun incident~he promised me will make me happy everyday~~Thanks DD for the night safari trip~~

Chapter 33~~SuSpeCtiNG

Last weekend got something happened make me not so happy?maybe i am too small gas or think too much odi~~i really choose to believe DD but my mind wont allowed me to do so keep on thinking~~not only the msg that make me suspect for something...from last time when i saw a comment in the DD friendster profile.it was wrote by someone saying that happy anniversary BB~~i tot it was long time ago comment but then i saw the date is juz recently posted after i know DD so i asked DD who r she?he told me tat is a long time not contact fren so i juz ignored it coz i choose to believe~~after i saw the msg in DD' phone actually not tat msg problem but is the recipient's name DD give her name as Love BB~DD was panic at the time quickly took bek his phone i feel that weird it is any secret that cant let me know or scare i saw something that i cant see~~so i purposely to ask him to double confirm for the account number and asked him to give the hp again but he refused to do so juz check by himself..from that time i confirmed that something was not right..not tat i don wan to believe but it really make me got no confident to believe~~how come i so hardworking to build up the confidence but suddenly all gone..really feel sad~my tear going to drop when DD asked me the incident but i still can control for that time..he asked me don simply think so i juz followed what he said choose to forget it but then when i saw DD's laptop game appearf someone name same like the friendster comment tat girl name~tis time i really start to think more about it~it was the passed story how come DD still never deleted it or maybe i should believe wut DD said..i really don know how to do for the next?i really wanna said out but don have the courage to do so~~am i too weak?drag until the next day when we finished our movie in tebrau city~~DD suggested to go expo coz he wanna go the pc fair so i agreed with that..on the way i said i got something wan to ask him but when the word odi in the mouth but i don have courage to say out~~he kept on asked me to say so i said regarding to the msg..he said wut i wanna to know or wanna him to do only i can believe him?tis time my tear really cant control automatically drop down..DD start to panic and his mood spoil coz of me..he said don wanna went tat pc fair odi since i got no mood to walk but i insisted that wanna accompany him to go coz tat was my promised to him that i will accompaying him to go pc fair so not matter how sad and how bad mood i am i muz go with him...tat was my principle i muz followed..nowadays DD start to make report to me when he is not together with me wanna to make me don anyhow suspect and simply think~~i know DD always care n love me so much but then sometimes i also will anyhow thinking..is this coz lack of security?

Chapter 32~~FuTurE

Did I really need to think of our future?I tell you the truth actually i do think on it but then i really scare that i will make the wrong decision or choose the wrong person u know?It is i am lack sense of security?i still cant confirmed it is u r the one tat will be together with me till the end of my life..ppl always said 'woman always scare married to the wrong person'it was right..i strongly agree with it that y i will feel scare when facing tis question but it still really too fast for me to make such decision..still long time for me to get marry..i never think that i will marry early coz in my plan the earliest also need wait until 28 years old tat mean still have 3 years time to go..i scare i don have freedom after tis stilll wanna to enjoy more it was not the correct time to bind together or go in graves..Last night coz of tis incident that make DD unhappy and my mood also follow it down~~when i suggested to surf net in mcd that near my house one then DD was agreed on me..when he started to on his laptop..the speed was super slow don know wut happen to the wireless..maybe the mcd internet speed was slow..he was starting angry and not be patient keep on scolding on it..i felt very down tat time u know?i asked him to stop it better than don use it..can u be patient a bit?u know i really don like you always angry on something is juz bcoz of the patient juz like last time when we were going to the genting while waiting for the hotel check in u also like that..can u be patient a bit so that u wont so easy to get angry.if u always angry also not good for ur health u know?can u pls live happily juz like me..as wut u said last nite i was always live happily..I really hope u can live happily without any stress and stay healthy always that was the much more important thing in our life..i know it was a bit difficult for u to live happily without stress coz i know u got a lot of thing to think about but can u pls try to do it?

Chapter 31~~SMiLe ALwAyS

A few days i didnt blog here...start lazy to do blogging odi although my own blog i also seldom updated..last time i used to update everyday...1 week juz passed odi happy and unhappy day gone~~moody last week i don know y keep on showing DD my black face and influenced his mood..sorry DD i am not purposely wanna to do tat..maybe u r right i felt myself was selfish sometimes didnt think of other DD's feeling and condition juz simply angry or mad on DD..i will try my best not to dissapoint DD and i will happy and smile always when meet up with DD so that u also can have a good mood when see me~~DD said i am cool last few days he also don know how to make me happy~~Last saturday i was planning to go my sis' house after work coz they having the steamboat dinner then asked us to join together..DD promised wanna fetch me go after tis..he called me in the morning saying that will be fetched me up after 1pm so when 1pm he called me again said that he was juz near my house and 1.30pm will be reached there n fetched me up so i quickly rush bek home and juz simply pick up some clothing and wait him in my house's downstair..in the same time i was calling him for a few times but he didn't pick up my phone and i was starting to get mad on him~~when he called me 1st time i purposely don wanna to pick up let him have the same feeling when ppl not pick up the phone..so he called me again and said still got 5 min will be reaching my place asked me to wait him at the bus stop there..after fetching me he asked me whether took my lunch odi or not?.i asked him don talk to me at the moment coz i am still angry on him..pity DD i know he will feel sad when heard it~~after settle his thing, he suggested to have some food before go in jb coz from morning until now he still haven eat something..i feel guilty DD was worrying me but i still get mad on him...when reached the food court i don feel like wan to eat but DD worried me and ordered a plate of minced pork noodle for me..really cant finished all but DD asked me to eat more and start to take the noodle in the my spoon n asked me to eat for 3 more spoons..feel warm and happy when DD was doing tis for me~~thank you DD...GG will love DD more for what ever u had done for me..DD told me a lot of his story yesterday...now i juz realized that i really don understand and know him more but i know wut is his purpose for doing this~DD pls listen to me 1 more time don put the 'hate' in mind always muz know or learn how to forgive or forget..i know it was difficult but u need to try it coz if u keep on remember in ur mind u wont feel happy always and will suffer for it~~y don u juz learn how to forget?the ppl who were doing wrong sure they will have their own 'bao ying' coz everything that we done the god will know it..i was happy when DD asked for my opinion and what ever decision that i was make he will juz listen on me..i choose to let them go DD promised me will let them go~~We were watching the where got ghost movie yesterday nite...actually we planned to watch it on last fri but tat time we cant bought any ticket for the behind seat so we canceled to watch it..luckily we reached there late yesterday but still can get the behind row seat...thanks god~~~DD bought me popcorn and drink...muacksss and love DD for what ever he had done for me..tis week DD will be bz for his work..muz remember to eat when working and take good care of urself..i will miss u too...hope DD will happy when reading my blog...

Chapter 30~~1St TrAveLLinG tO kL & GeNtiNg

Yesterday was our 2nd month we knew each other...i was bought DD the elephant and pig soft toy as what i was promised to him last time..i bought it on last fri quite rush for me to do so~~DD was fetching me to jb on fri i know he will be feel hungry so i bought the dumpling for him for some bite 1st..my sis was cooking for our dinner so v ate something before going bek to jb~~i was happy coz suddenly received a news that i can took off on sat coz start on this month i can choose 2 sat off per month~~yeah DD will bringing me to shopping in kl tml coz he wanna to send something to people so we accompanied him to settle his thing after tat only went shopping~~sg wang..DD was nice helped me to take all my stuffs and my beg too~~i know DD was tiring coz he didnt took good rest and need to use his full energy in driving from jb to kl~~pity him still need to accompany me shopping~~we really have a happy journey while in genting although when check in time odi spoil his mood i keep on consoled him and asked him to cool down~~my parent look like quite satisfied with him~~luckily he got some topic can speak with my dad n my eldest bro if not he will be feel bored when i am not around him~~i think he also happy for this trip~~yesterday night i knew he was tiring odi lazy to go out for dinner when we reached my sis's house around 9.30pm..he said wanna ordered the food delivery but then he lost the food delivery contact no..i asked him to go out ate something then i will accompanying him but then he was lazy so no choice i juz can cook the instant noodle for him..i know the noodle was not enough for him..he said nvm tml morning juz ate more~~midnite 2am smt he tot me he was hungry odi so i asked him whether wanna had some bread or biscuit but he rejected~~pity DD and today early morning need to wake up and fetch me to spore~~

Chapter 29~~MoViE dAY

Last 2 days (05.08.2009) i was going to watch movie G.I JOE with DD..actually we do not plan it at the beginning so i didnt bring the spec went out..we reached there around 7.45pm then we bought the 8.40pm movie show~~DD suggested to go bek my house to take my spec if not later i would not be see it clearly from the screen..nearly full house for the seat..only left the side seat all centre seat fully occupied if wanna the centre seat only left the front row which is 4 row from the screen..so we rather choose the side seat then the front row~~a bit rushing for our dinner coz the time was no enough so DD suggested to go bek my house 1st then later maybe juz bought the mcd~~when i brought all my things so we proceeded our way to jurong point again~~in the traffic light tat time i juz remember that i still haven took my spec i totally forgot it~~so DD make an U-turn and bek to my ohuse again~~rushing... rushing reached jurong point again on 8.30pm odi...left only 10mins for our dinner i am not tat hungry so i juz ignored for my dinner so DD bought the mcd and i suggested to have it there b4 go in cinema coz i don think we can brought it go in cinema sometimes they got do some checking before go in cinema~~DD bought me the popcorn combo of the week which is the G.I JOE combo with the free gift of hand plaster, large popcorn with 1 large cup of drink...the movie was so nice i like it~~Yesterday we were going to swimming as usual coz i odi make the schedule~~tues and thursday we were going to swimming..for mon, wed and fri i will go jogging for myself coz i don think DD will go jogging with me anymore but then as wut he said last time after 2 months time he will be jogging in front of me odi..i still waiting for his challeging..so DD pls keep on ur promise and work it out hard i don think DD got do any practicing and training tis few weeks and i wont believe that u will go in front of me..i know u r pro in swimming but then jogging i don think u will pro than me~~after swimming we went to fetch my sis coz my sis having class until 10pm then DD also went bek to jb so he will fetching my sis bek to jb~~having our late dinner consider supper odi at bukit panjang there~~famous nasi lemak..reached home 10 plus so i arranged all my clothing..too complicated for my wardore i need some time to clean and rearrange it..i juz done half way throw some stuffs that odi spoiled or unused into dustbin~~now look more tidy and less things..i will be bringing some stuffs bek to my hometown coz i don think i got enough space to keep them in my small n limited space in spore..not to forgotten i saw 1 comment from someone in DD friendster profile..someone was sending him a comment i don know wut is the purpose of that comment although it juz a few and short wording odi make me to suspect something..it is all the girl r the same always and easy suspect this and that?DD asked me don think too much or out of the box coz he also don know the incident~~he will check out for the incident..how many % that i can trust..do u know wut is meaning of BB?only the intimate fren will use this word u know or maybe it was just a joke?can u give me the answer?

Chapter 28~~SuPeR bRoOm sTaR

Really a super broom star..y everytime got tis kind thing happened..last time experience was my frens who we odi promised and confirmed to go the place but end up we canceled the whole trip juz bcoz of him but tis thing would happened again on tis time but i still feel moody coz the SBS~~don misunderstood not the SBS in spore but is the SBS people in spore..SBS stand for super broom star if u don know wut is the meaning pls tried to convert it to chinese version..don wanna to explain here anymore coz really got no mood to write here~~without u i don think got any influence although u promised to go at the beginning but now said don wan to go~~a few thinking was appearing on my mind maybe juz i think too much..wut is the next step for me?should i give up something or juz continue like tat?i don know it is the correct decision that i make?can someone teach me how can i do or give me some guidance?i think he is joking with me how can he juz left me go alone?i know he will miss me a lot if he don wanna to go together..Scary!!!DD was fierced when he was angry or scolding ppl...make me also don dare to talk to him~~Pls don always angry if not later DD will feel headache again..Accompanying DD until 12am smt he juz went bek to jb~~i was giving a short pant to DD which i bought from bangkok..i didnt bought anything for him like what he said no heart~~actually it was not coz i cant find anything tat suit him some more he asked me to buy him an elephant soft toy but i cant even to find it...so sorry DD cant get anything that u wish~~

Chapter 27~~UnPrEdiCtAbLe DaY

The day b4 yesterday DD was telling me tat he will be busy on something so he couldn't meet up with me on yesterday so i was asking him to settle his work don worry me..i will take care of myself..when he was calling me for chit chatting suddenly he changed his mind said wanna come n meet me up~~he was unhappy when he saw some photo that i took with someone and i was telling him who asked u don wanna to know me earlier so tat can bring me go singapore zoo then i no need to go with him..when he met up me in my house's downstair he told me wanna brought me to the zoo but then i need to go to change money 1st i don think the time was allowed us to go zoo after tat so i suggested changed to next time when i am coming bek from bangkok~~I will be away singapore for 5 days so DD must take good care of urself..i know u will miss me a lot but u need to learn how to live without me not too independent on me..if not u will be get in trouble~i was suddenly feel moody when i nearly fall down in the jurong point's carpark..all my happy mood gone don know y...DD asked me y i look so sad and black face..actually i also don know y my mood changed so fast too moody right?pity DD tat need to see a black face girl beside him..sorry DD if i make ur mood down...

Chapter 26~~We ArE 1 MoNtH

Yesterday was our dating for 1 month anniversary so DD was bringing me to changi place SAF yatch school having our dinner there..a nice night view there but the restaurant juz so so only like the normal mamak stall that u can found anyway in Malaysia long time never go mamak stall odi miss the time when i was studying in tarc~~i know he was bz for his work but he still come n meet me.. but then traffic jammed when we r on the way reached the place odi nearly 9pm having a late dinner again...i will become more n more fat le..how can i slim down now?DD still asking me to eat more he said i need to gain more weight but then nowadays i odi gained 2kg to 3kg odi le..feel so sad still asked me to eat more..i know DD was angry with someone coz the day b4 he went out drinking with his group of fren something unhappy thing was happened so now DD planned to play him until die.DD plz don be so cruel and studborn..juz a minor thing give ppl a way and a chance to changed or learned from the mistake..i suggested to sit the bench near the swimming pool there but juz sit for a while the weather start to rain so we were bek to the car..DD was fetching me to the east coast park starbuck have some drink..he was tiring ask me to promise and give him 20 mins to have a snap there if not later he got no energy to fetch me bek home..somemore now he is lack of ciggarette coz cant even can buy it there need to go a bit farer place only can get it..nearly 11.30pm i asked him to fetch me bek coz i oso feel tired and sleepy don know y although i odi sleep more on yesterday but still think no enough of it..While sending me bek home DD was asking me a question do i love him?such a funny question right?If i am not love u how come i accept u as my bf?i don think i can juz simply to accept a guy that i don like as my bf if like tat b4 tat i odi had a lot of bf and u might not be my 1st but juz depend on how deep i love u~~i think will be less than u but my heart got a scar until now from tat day the laptop incident u still haven give me a acceptable answer but u still asked me what it is?

Chapter 25~~PriVaTe & CoNfiDenTiaL

This few days DD was mentioning about rent house in spore..he asked me to stay together with him but i rejected..got a few reasons tat make me strongly rejected tis ideas..if let say stay in the same house but no same room i still can acceptable but if same room i will not accept it...
1.privacy~~every person have their own privacy thing some don like ppl to know or touch on it.
2.close minded~~maybe i had the old mind thinking fashioned if haven married cant stay together ..i think my parent also agreed on this point.
3.freedom~~i need the freedom for myself coz sometimes i need my personal time to do my personal thing.. 4.boring~~i heard a lot of couple said if stay together..the relationship will become not tat close like previously coz maybe feel boring to each other..
My dd was on his laptop's song while sleeping so tat time i put the table fan behind the laptop..when i saw his forehead got a lot of sweat i know he was feeling very hot although the room have the fix fan to ceiling..so i wanna to shut down his laptop n move the laptop away and put the table fan nearly to his sleeping bed..when i touch his laptop he was awake from sleeping asked me wut i am doing n wut i am looking for..look like i am doing the wrong thing or simply open his laptop's file..DD really don understand me enough i am not tat kind of person..DD's action will make me feel tat he is not 100% believe me and maybe feel tat i will do something to betray him..i really feel dissapointed at tat time juz i don wan to say out but when he told me yesterday nite his laptop is his personal thing only he n me touch it b4..other ppl cant even wanna to touch on it..coz he said i odi know the laptop's password so he need to change a new 1 for the security purpose..i really don understand on it but then i will juz ignored it coz every ppl had their own privacy better i don wan to know so much on it..but at least DD got told me what the important thing inside the laptop tat y he need to do so~~i was telling him through msn don know y my tear also come out automatically~how come i am become so weak juz a minor thing also can make me cry~~he keeps on said sorry to me actually i don wan DD said sorry to me coz sorry also cant solve the problem..the words odi come out cant took bek some more it will be always remind me in my heart to avoid me repeat the same mistake~hurted feeling unhappy:'(...tired~tired~i am super tiring whether is my body or my spirit~~what can i do?

Chapter 24~~PrOmiSiNG

DD was bz for his work tis few days coz need to run 2 places always drive here and there..i know he was tiring but then everyday he still come and meet me up for dinner..can DD plz take good care of ur own and take more rest if u feel u r tiring juz take some rest don always force urself to work~~i know money is important but then health r more important than tat although u got a lot of money not mean that u have a healthy body~money who don like but it cant finish earned~yesterday DD was meet up me for dinner he didnt went swimming with me so i went there alone~~the time for the swimming was juz nice coz still early not tat crowded~~DD brought me to the nearest hawker centre juz near my house for our dinner...after tat we were going to the same place~~west coast park mcdonald surfing net..DD bought me a cup of mcflurry yeah my favourite ice cream but very fat..my fren tot i only eat the ice cream for my dinner but then it was my 2nd round odi consider supper..we walked around the seaside and DD was make promise to me~~he will love me and take care of me forever~such a touching word right..i will remember the promise tat DD was make for me although now is not the suitable time for me to do any response for it..everything not impossible so i cant do any promise for u~

Chapter 23~~OpTiMiStiC

Yesterday i got sense that something was happening..my worrying and guessing was correctly~~Early in the morning DD was bek from jb and called me tat time..after tat we were chatting in msn..he sent me the left of the photo tat we took in west coast~~he still look happy and normal~~i know later on he need to take his medical report..i know he was worrying about the result juz he don wanna to show in front of me..Actually after lunch i was no mood to continue my work i got planned to call DD asked for the report result but i don dare to do so maybe will disturbing DD..when the time nearly 5pm i need to knock off from office..something was appearing in my mind..it is something happened on DD coz he will always contact with me when nearly 5pm whether he will be coming to fetch me or not but today he did not do so~~i was starting to worry..as usual i was going for jogging..whole jogging i was making some guessing and keep on console myself maybe DD was busy for his work until forget to call me..later he finished it will be coming and meet me up..when i was going bek from jogging i saw DD's car in my house downstair..i was happy when saw the DD and asked him had he took the report and how was it but he was skipping my question without answering me..we went chit chatting in my house downstair for a while coz i juz bek from jogging also cant direct took bath need to take rest~he did not mentioned even 1 word of the report..i am sure tat something muz happened odi although he did not show his sadness in front of me coz don wanna i am thinking and worrying too much for him~~he keeps on chasing me went up for bathing and took all the clothing..he don allowed i washed my clothing by myself..he said it was too tired for me coz i need to work and exercise odi feel tired some more need to wash own clothing..actually i don feel any tiring coz it only took a few mins to finished it so DD plz don worry about me~~DD suggested to have the taiwan porridge in bukit timah there coz we cant even think for other food that we want to eat~~every night DD also asked for my opinion..for me i took any food at least can make me full except rice and some kind of meat~not really need to go to restaurant i still prefer tat kind of mamak or 'da pai dang' in malaysia which we can ordered a lot of foods and can eat it happily~~after dinner DD was asking me where i wan to go~i said don have so he brought me to the west coast park again~~on the way for our dinner tat time he odi started to ask me some question i odi feel so weird how come he asked me such question it is he wan push me to other ppl?While we were in west coast park tat time he was telling me the truth~~i am feeling happy and sad~~happy is tat finally he tell me the truth and his feeling and sad is tat he got the sick but then i don think it was a serious sick~~he said after he got the result then he was thinking a lot how to solve the problem..he is selfish wanna let me go and push me to the someone tat i don like..DD plz give me some freedom to choose and decide my own decision or way to go don juz leave me for someone..i am not stock can juz simply let u move here and there~~i am human got my own feeling too~if u really do so u will be sufering for whole life~i don think u can continue live happily without me..anyway i wont juz left DD alone to face the problem so DD u muz think optimistically everything will not be impossible..although ur sick don have any medicine can cure but then we juz work hard on it and tried to follow the doctor's advised~~i hope miracle will be appearing and DD can live happily don have so much stress~~god bless him..coz as i said god r fair to everyone~~no pain no gain~so DD muz feel appreciated for wut u have now~~at least u still got me to accompany u when u r in down mood or happy mood~~cheer up my bravo DD don simply to give up ur life~

Chapter 22~~Check out

DD said wanna to meet up with me on monday after i finished jogging..when nearly 5pm i was receiving the called from him..he told me tat he was feeling unwell headache again and cant meet me up tonight so i told him never mind u juz take care urself..i asked him to c the doctor don took the panadol again but he gave me the same reason..no time~~it is the work is much important than ur health?wut do u think about it?i know u got nothing to worry about but if really got something happened do u know tat ppl around u will worrying and sadness for u??do u think u r selfish enough to do tat?Some more suddenly the jb site facing some problem he need to rush bek jb again...pity DD~~i really cant help and do anything for him..juz pray hard hope the god will blessing him..but then around 8 smt he called me said wanna to meet me for a while coz he left some drawing in the spore office so he came bek again~~he told me he odi went to c the doctor and odi make the appointment for the whole head scan tml morning in sgh..a bit happy and worry after i heard tis..happy is coz he odi listen to me go n look for doctor..worry is scare i will receiving a bad news from te report..anyway i hope everything should be fine cant simply give up~~ DD muz take good care of urself plz when i was not around u~~Yesterday DD was fetching me after work so we went for swimming in the chinese garden there..i know he odi tired but still need to accompany me for swimming coz i know he was worrying for something..coz of my swiming suit..i think i need to listen to his advice to change a proper one so he no need to worry so much and if he feel tiring then he can took more rest no need purposely to accompany me~~we went for our dinner after tat~~always headache for our dinner coz both of us don have any ideas of it..finally we having our dinner at bukit timah the 24 hours noodle house~~reached my house on 10pm and i accompanied DD for a while b4 he was going to jb..suddenly i touched his hair and feel like a bit wet on his forehead so i asked him r u sweating?i don feel the weather was very hot here but how come he can sweat?he said got sense tat the headache will be coming bek again..he left the medicine on his office i asked him to drive bek to take it don wanna him to take the panadol again..in my mind i very sure he wont listen to me he will continue to take the panadol coz i know his character wont purposely turn bek juz coz of the medicine..after he called me when he was on the way to jb..he told me tat he juz bought the panadol and eat 4 pils in the same time...tat wut i am guessing all corectly~~i got no power to give any advised to him even though i advised he also wont listen to me..but anyway if panadol really can cure his headache and release his painful i will agreed he do so...Another thing to argue between us...when he was calling me tat time i was washing for my clothing..everyday i also washed the clothing after i finished exercise and when i am bathing..he said too tired for me to do so and when he heard tat everyday i need to wash the clothing also feel pity to me..actually i odi used to it coz when i was studying in coll time always do tat so it was not the hard or tough job for me..he asked me to take to the laundry shop so tat i no need so tired to wash it everyday..he said only a few dollar wont very expensive and he can paid for me..it is not the money problem u know..juz i don think washed clothing is a tough and tiring job for me..i still handle for it..hope that u can understand it~~

Chapter 21~~worrying

i was getting mad again with him on last friday..wut was happening until i always get mad on him..i also feel like nowadays i like to angry and get moody...can someone tell me why?i don like myself like tat juz small thing odi feel angry..i done something when he don wanna to fetch me bek on friday coz the day was kinda late n i odi feel sleepy and tired..when i asked him to fetch me bek he was telling me he don wan coz wanna someone to accompany him then i was waiting c when he juz wanna to fetch me bek without keep on remind him coz i don like keep on remind for something if u know my character u will know tat..when i wan for something i muz get it maybe tis called studborn..a few mins later my 'fire' start on then i direct open the car's door and get out from the car..i walked alone to the end of the west coast park's resting area and juz sitting there play with my hp..i know on the way he called me for a few times but i don wanna pick it up..it is too 'ye man' and small gas sometimes i was thinking bek for my action it is i done the wrong way?i wanna share tis with my closer fren and they will telling me i wasn't doing wrong if he really care for me then he should always asked me to sleep early and fetch me bek early.. when he found me in resting place he hold my hand asked me to go bek..i know he was panic and worried tat time coz i know his character scare i get mad on him..i still angry tat time but when reaching my house he will receiving a called from jb job site..something was happening for the job so he need to rush bek to jb again suddenly my heart was softing at the same time odi forgive him for everything coz i know he will getting more stress if i continue angry on him i don wanna bcome his 'beg' too heavy for him to carry..as promised he will fetching me to jb after my cycling in east coast with my frens ..so when 5pm plus i was calling him asked him to fetch me on 6.15pm and i bought some snack~~popiah and sugar cane juice for him i know he always will feel hungry on tat time..he asked me to help him to buy the extra strong panadol again..i was worrying him coz i odi told him for many times cant be always depend on the panadol asked him to do the body check up but he always told me no time to do so..DD can u please listen to me for tis time..it is regarding for ur health and i do such thing juz for ur own good i don wan a sick bf.. i wanna u give me a secure to become ur gf not always worrying for something...he was late on tat day when i was waiting alone in the east coast park feel a bit angry again i know he was jammed in the traffic i need to understand for him and the distance also not the short..but i think i odi called him and told him earliest he should came here on time..my gf told me actually the guy should wait for the girl not the girl shoud wait for the guy..i was so boring while waiting for him no place for me to go so i juz find a seat and saw the ppl playing roller blake there..called my god sis to chit chat with her since she is the one tat i can share my story..after finished chatting with her i will feeling better..on the way i got nth to chat with him..he saw my look odi know i was angry and in bad mood he got asked me for a few times it is i still angry with tat incident i reply him no..juz feel very tired coz he odi make me angry for 2 times.Long time i didnt do tat in front of my fren and not tat small gas but after i become his gf look like always feel tat..it is i changed odi or no enough sleep for me to make me like tat..i hope it is juz temporary i will return it bek very soon..i was telling him my feeling, he was understanding on it and promised me wont do the same thing to make me mad again..he said wanna go out with his fren for some drink i said if u wan go juz go la coz long time u also didnt meet up ur fren odi later all ur frens will gone and forget u but he was asking me to accompany him..end up he cancel for the date and stay at my sis's bf house..i fried 3 eggs for him since he only eat popiah for his dinner i don think he will feel full..luckily my fried egg skill still can use de juz i forget to take the photo to prove tat..he said wanna do mask so i went my sis's room to take and tried to apply to his face and i also do it for my own..after 20 mins i helped him to tear off the mask..he look like too tired odi slept coz 2 days never sleep odi sure tiring..i don wan to disturb him so i bek to my sis's room to sleep there..when around 2am smt my sis heard the sound someone was knocking our room door so she went to open n see and my sis called me wake up and told me DD look like cant sleep in tat room maybe too hot.so i went out n saw him juz sit on the floor outside our room..i went and asked him it is u cant sleep he told me he feel very hard wan to breath asked me muz go to c the doctor now..i shocked and feel a bit scary~~he asked me whether can accompany he went clinic or not?no need to ask sure i will follow him coz i also worried wont let him alone..he started vomit and cant even walked properly..if like tat how come he still can drive so i asked my sis fetched him to go to clinic...he told us tat skudai have 1 clinic open 24 hours while on the way we saw the police checking so we asked the police whether nearby there have any hospital or not..coz he bcome weaker and weaker i know he took a lot of pils of panadol..when reached the clinic the door was put open but then locked odi so i knock the door the nurse was telling us it is urgent and serious case the doctor cant help asked us sent him to hospital but then my sis and i not familiar with the jb road luckily he still can teached us how to reach the hospital so direct went to icu..when reached there he really cant stand up and walked properly so the nurse there was using the wheel chair to help him to go inside..we cant go in the room juz can waiting him outside so after payment need to wait for the doctor also...the nurse was calling me to go in the room asked me wut happened to him so i was telling her tat he took too many pils of panadol.He was feeling very difficult to breath look like wanna stop it..i helped him to move from wheel chair to bed coz he said very cold..the nurse said bed there have blanket u can use it so u wont feel so cold..the nurse there v loussy never helped ppl to do so i need to help him for myself..i was going bek to the waiting area and need to wait for the queue number for doctor..when reached the number and the nurse was calling the number..i was going in again but the doctor only allowed 1 person go in..after finished checking the doctor said everything was smooth so juz gave some medicine for him..so went bek home nearly 5am odi..i was accompanying him the whole day..he cant sleep peacefully look like a lot of stress and thing to think when he sleep coz keep on dream and dream talking..scary le sometimes look like wan to kill ppl i was asking him when he wake up ..i saw him like tat very pity le my heart feel sour and sad..i was crying on tat day..cant really control myself the tear was coming out automatically..he shocked y suddenly i was crying it is i am still angry on him..i was asking him it is u were too stress with ur work or wut...i think i am independent enough to handle everything but i am wrong when saw him like tat..what can i do for him to help him come out from the painful time?long time i didnt cry..1st time i am crying juz bcoz of someone..he asked me promised him something..never to leave him if everything happened..but 1 thing i can proved tat i odi feel love with DD if no love i also wont cry for him tis the question he was asking me yesterday but then i didnt give him a satisfied answer..wan to tell DD i love u~~

Chapter 20~~Touching

This few days i was going jogging by myself coz DD jb job start odi now he was busying for his work..even though he was bz when dinner time he still will come and took dinner together..i know he got a lot of things wanna to do and bz..but healthy also important need to take good care of himself..headache also bcome more n more serious he took a lot of panadol when headache coming..i keep on asking him to see and do some body check up coz panadol is not the correct way to cure the headache but he always told me he was very bz n don have the free time for him to c the doctor..that's not a valid reason..DD please promise me must go and look for the doctor..Wednesday we were arguing again with the exercise matter he asked me cancel jogging today he feel very tired and if i am going jogging he need to wait for me such a long time.End up i was jogging as normal after tat we were sending the pantene moisturise to my fren's house~Admiralty..not tat near to my house need to take around 30 mins i tot it was near..another headache question coming~~how about our dinner meal??where and what we should go?i suggested to have spicy food but don know which can we go..he said it is bek to tat steamboat buffet shop coz tat side got a lot of choices of soup u can choose rather tom yum or ma la soup..DD always go there juz eat a bit only i guess maybe he don like the steamboat or maybe i choose the spicy soup..pity him so he only took the ready food such as fried mihun or fried rice with some fried food..i like their water chestnut and lime juice..DD always ask me to eat some meat coz every time he juz saw me took a lot of veggies..he was sending me bek early and walk walk in my house downstair..Yesterday i didnt go for swimming coz DD asked me to go jogging he cant accompany i go swimming..i know the reason y he don let me go swimming alone..DD please don worry about me i know how to take good care of myself when u r not around..i think i really need to listen him to buy another new set of swimming suit..if not he will not allowed me to go swimming alone...after tat he was rushing to jurong point ocbc coz his atm card spoil odi cant withdraw the money by using the card so he need direct to go to counter..as i know the bank only opened until 7pm but he told me is 8pm or 8.30pm..when we reached there the bank closed odi then he cant withdraw out the money..he said to9 i need to treat him for dinner i always like to joke with him said to9 u will be eating the grass la...actually is not a matter for me to pay for the dinner...he said don wanna to use my money coz my money is hard earn by me..but i said ur 1 very easy to earn?will you feel touch?i know he don have much money on hand so i asked him wut he want to eat i treat him for the dinner..end up he choose the food court actually i wanna ordered for him the meal but he said he can ordered himself but he only drink the soup without rice...i don think he will feel full coz he always need to eat rice for his meal..i keep on asking him whether u wan to eat other food or not?after tat we went mcdonald to meet up my sis..he bought a cup of jasmine tea..our all time favourite no matter where we are..DD asked me a question will i leave him in one day without he do anything wrong...i said if u got no wrong y i need to leave u?i am not tat kind juz wanna find someone for play play or passed the time..if u think so then u r wrong..so DD don think too much on it ok..i will not simply juz leave u alone..

Chapter 19~~Contract

I put the title as contract coz maybe we were lack of understanding each other..tis few days he keeps on argue with me regarding the exercise matter tat y i am typing a contract wanna asked him to sign and agree with my schedule for the exercise..he always said i am selfish juz think of myself..actually i was not coz b4 i become his gf everyday i also go jogging tat wut he also know if u wan i accept u as my bf then u need to understand and accept for it..exercise odi become my habit i cant even to stop it although u r my important person..I hope DD do understand me and don't argue with me on this matter coz i really hate it...i was complaining my work to him..he was asking me to work until end of august and went to help him...got a few reasons that i cant help my DD coz i don think is a good news if we work together..like my boss wife, she also work in the same company with my boss sometimes they were quarrel about the work and both also in bad mood..i don like such feeling need always quarrel with someone i closed with..i wan peaceful and happy always..another reason is tis job was recommending by my excoll so i don wanna be a not responsible person..i need to wait whole project fully completed only i can leave here happily and without any worrying.i know the feeling tat need to handle half way job not tat easy to do tat..i will trying my best to finish it..DD was suggesting wanna go Japan end of tis year probably end of nov or early of dec coz end of dec i was fully booking..not someone was booking for me but is my sis's wedding so i need to prepare a lot of things..Thanks DD love ya and muacksss coz u know the japan is my dream travelling country since long ago i juz wait for the chance to go there...Another wish will be come true soon..

Chapter 18~~Angry face

1st time i saw DD angry with someone...the black face like 'bao gong' .Angry time he look more fierce and scary..i cant even dare to talk to him when he was in angry mood..DD was headache and stress for his work..i understand his situation when meet him i don dare and don wan to show him the unhappy face if not will make him more stress and unhappy...tat y i tried my best to let him don be so stress coz i also don know how to console him and wut can i do to release the stress...sorry DD i cant helped u in ur work but what i can do is trying my best to let u happy..i think my smile maybe can release ur stress..I hope DD can settle the problem asap and stay happy always all the unhappy gone and out of his mind...maybe when u need me i am not beside u but u muz always remember i will giving my spirit and fully support to u..he asked my suggestion and idea for our dinner..he said if don faster think of it later he will feel headache again some more hungry now so i tried my best to give suggestion to go bukit timah where last time we went there for the steamboat buffet area..i know tat side got a lot of eating place but i cant really know other than steamboat wut else there so i planned to have a look there..so we walked from the front to the back..i saw something~~ prince taiwan porridge tis what i am looking for...sweet potato porridge..after finished it we went to west coast mcdonald coz DD suggested wanna surfing net there..his laptop battery going flatted so we were looking around for the electrical plug..luckily got 1 malay guy, he was so nice share the extension with us..thanks a lot to him...i was logging in the msn met my fren there chat a while with her coz she said long time never saw me on nite time nowadays i really bz on nite time coz of him..DD was boring there so i was stopping to surf net to accompany him.West coast really gave us a lot of memory it was our 1st time meeting place..

Chapter 17~~1st month anniversary celebration

We were celebrating the 1st month anniversary on last friday before that he got told me will give me a big surprise on tat day~~the surprise was sending a bouquet of flower which consist of 20 pcs of blushing pink roses and two-tone purple carnation sprays to my office..1st time i received the delivery flower tat really will feel a bit touch and happy although some of them will said it was wasting the money..Thanks DD~~ he leave some msg in the card~~love me forever i will always remember for what u had promise to me..my fren was telling me tat pink roses not tat common in the market coz she said seldom will saw it..i tot it juz a normal colour and can find it everywhere..actually it not a surprise odi when he asked for my company add i odi guess what he will done for me..we went for dinner at vivocity actually we were not going to there for dinner coz he got the wrong information from his fren..his fren recommended him a romantic and nice restaurant which faced to the sea view somewhere in harbour front road or kim seng road but he was wrong listening to harbour front centre..everyday we also need to think and make the decision for our dinner..boring so juz walked around to search for the restaurant...we got no idea what to eat some more most of the restaurant there got a long queue and crowded so we juz simply pick the one tat not tat crowded~~japanese restaurant...not bad the restaurant also faced to the sea view but the food so so only coz not many choices of it..he cant eat the spicy food so a limited choices for him coz most of them r spicy food inside the menu...i really done a brave thing on tat day daring me until myself also cant believe of it...tis thing juz keep on our mind i don wanna to share with others.god please help me i need to protect and control myself~~~he was fetching my sis n i went bek jb on the next day evening and having dinner together in hao chen steamboat buffet after tat having 2nd round yum cha session with my frens..he was headache on tat day some more we don have panadol on hand so i asked him to stop in seven eleven n i go down to buy panadol for him..will he ate too much odi 4 pils per 1 time?scary me~~ he get mad on me yesterday coz he said i always just think of myself without care for his feeling..actually i was not coz everyday i wan to do exercise if u forced me also no choice tat was my habit u can even changed it..nowadays i really cut down more compared to last time..tis wut i can do for you please forgive me..i don like ppl forced me to do something that i dont like..when he was fetching me bek from jb his face bcome very dark in colour i also don wanna to talk more with him until reaching my home i planned to go swimming by myself coz don wanna to go with him..but then he sms me said waiting me downstair and called me too...when on the way we didn't talked until i went to the swimming pool and swim for 7 laps only he start talk to me...i know he always follow my steps where i wan to go..we were going to marina barrage again after swimming..a nice place there we have a nice chatting night there..he was sharing a lot of his family matters to me...let me know more about him...tis few days my mind always remind me 1 thing am i do the right decision of choosing and accepting him?i don really know about tat..i know he wanna know the answer how deep i love him from 1 to 10 marks..i cant even give him the anwer coz myself also don know the answer..he gave me 8 marks..he said without me don know how he can continue to survive sometimes i also worried will i hurt him in one day?Am i thinking too much odi?Everything should be take it as natural~~

Chapter 16~~Swimming day

Happy 1st month anniversary to both of us..Yesterday he was sending the pantene moisturise to my office..my colls them was so curious about him especially Joanna..she went out have a look on him..after that she was giving the comment that he was not bad asked me don waste time to think about faster grab if not fate passed very fast..once u missed it don know when u still got such chance to have new one..she gives me a example of her fren..he always complaining about my dressing..he said too short of my yesterday dressing..i know he was worrying about me coz don wanna let other ppl saw it ma..he cant fetched me bek home coz he need to send 2 boxes to my sis n then rushed bek to office to change his clothing and went swimming with me later...so i met him in my downstair then we went swimming together..when reached there the swimming pool was closed need to wait until 7pm coz some event was doing there..he was hungry so we went have some snack while waiting the swimming pool to open..he only allowed me to swim for 7 laps actually i wan go jogging and swimming but then he don allowed me to do so coz he need to wait for me for long time..tat y i cancel the jogging plan n go swimming with him..met up my sis them at imm then we walked around there..he was asking me wut i wan to eat for my dinner i said don wanna took liao..he said if i don wan eat next time cant go jogging and swimming odi..he always asked me to eat more coz he said i am too slim wanna feed me bcome fat fat like the fat pig i gave him...when we started to search for some restaurant for our dinner all nearly closed so we changed our place to bukit timah after fetching my sis in jurong east mrt station...he knows i only eat noodle so he brought us to the noodle house..11 smt odi tis meal odi bcome supper.If i keeps on eat like tat sure very fast i will bcome very fat de...my sis's bf was not familiar with tis area so he was bringing him to custom then we turned bek our way to jurong...i was tiring and sleepy when he asked me whether wan to go marina barrage or not..so we cancel it juz bek to my place jurong area..i asked him whether wan to go down walk walk or not..coz last time i heard he said like tis feeling..he said my sis's bf really a 100%good husband my sis was lucky can meet him..so envy them..can i meet the same guy in my life?he said he will take care and love me foverer and will do what ever thing which is under his control or he will tried his best to do it..So sorry to DD coz i always let his eye get injured odi...i always asked him to go swimming with me but then he always swim without the goggle tat y his eye always get injured after tis..tear drop without control make him feel his eye uncomfortable and difficult to drive the car..pity my DD~~maybe i should find something for him~~

Chapter 15~~Henderson Waves

Tml is our big and memory day~~1st month anniversary..tat was our 1st month anniversary for the day we met but not the 1st day tat we start to go together..he odi make the appointment with me last few weeks b4 the date..i didn't realised tat the date is our 1st month anniversary juz the day b4 yesterday we talked about our story i juz remember it.. no wonder he wan to date me on tat day..tis time sure cant let him dissapointed and ffk him anymore..i know he odi planned for something..yesterday he said wan to pick me up from my work but around 4.30pm he was calling me said cant make it coz suddenly got something to rush...i am bored and hate after got tis news coz i don like ppl promised my thing but later on he or she cant do it so b4 u wan to confirm or promise smt with me pls think carefully whether u really can do it then only u confirm or promise me if not really will spoil my day and mood..so i planned to cancel for the nite plan~henderson wave..after finished jogging i juz know tat i got 4 missed call from him..i did not bring hp go jogging so cant pick up his call..i know now sure he will feel angry about it coz he always complaining me tat did not pick up his call always but then not i don wan to pick up the phone juz tat my hp not always with me especially when i was jogging or bathing..i was calling him bek and he told me tat he odi in my house downstair. I was telling him that i don wanna to go out tonight coz too tired odi..he said nvm lo juz up to me..i went for bathing after tat received 2 missed call from him again..he was asking me to come down coz he still waiting there..too pity him la i am too small gas and always didn't care about his feeling..i hate myself like tat...when i went down i didn't saw him so i was calling him but he did not pick up my call...i walked to the behind market to buy some apples b4 on the way he was calling me again i asked him to wait for me a while...he look like got problem on his work..when saw him so stress on his work, i feel myself like 'wu li qu nao' only think of myself without thinking for other person..i need to change my attitude..i don wan he keeps on stress on his work n me..after finished work if he saw me like tat sure will feel dissapointed and sad de so i need to train myself be more happy and smile always when meet him..so that he can release some stress from work..don wan to give him double stress..i know he likes my smile coz he told me b4 my smile so beautiful after saw it his mood will bcome happy too...we were ordering the mcdonald and brought to the henderson wave..he was so nice bought me the mcflurry ice cream..thanks DD..he asked me to go for toilet if not scare later top of the mountain don have anymore toilet but then he said if really don have toilet on the top of the mountain he wanna to 'bei' me...today the resting place there all full house we cant found any place for ourself so juz find the nice corridor...we took the photo around coz last time we forgot to take our camera here so we used hp to take but then the night was so dark cant even saw the face..he said he likes to hug me or when i hug him he will feel very warm like house feeling...as promised he was sending me bek early..after reached home i received sms from him..he apologized to me said tat cant accompany me tml coz he need to bz for his work until late..i do understand tat wont get mad on him...

Chapter 14~~Steamboat again

He said wanna come and fetched me on 4.30pm but then when nearly 5pm i received his call, he told me tat he forgot to take smt from his office so he turned bek to take and asked me whether wan to wait for him or not..coincidence my coll was in the office and he can send us bek so i asked him direct to my house no need to come office again..he promised will reaching my house around 5.30pm coz actually i wan to do jogging after tat only went for swimming but he not allowed me to go jogging coz he will be boring waiting there so we directed went for swimming...today the swimming pool was less ppl maybe coz the raining tat y not much ppl came for swimming...i said i wanna swim for 10 laps only will accompanying him play the water...DD don have such seminar can swim for 10 laps so sometimes he juz took rest n wait for me there..He asked to stop when i finished 8 laps but i insisted wanna to finish 10 laps. He got no choice need to follow my decision coz once i confirmed to do something u cant even can changed it maybe tis called studborn..yeah~~~after tat we were going to play the water which the human made wave..the wave was strong although u didn't use the ballon..scare le but luckily i got someone can be my support he can take care of me..i was feeling so cold there so i asked him faster went for bathing but he keeps on saying stay for a while 1st don be so early so we juz sit inside the water...i know wut he worried coz tis few days he was planning for something how to let my parent agreed on us..asked me to give him some tips..i said 1st thing my parent don like smoking de then he got smoke but i know nowadays he was hardworking tried to cut it down..gambateh ne DD i know u can do it...he asked me to give some suggestion on our dinner..everyday our question juz around there wut should we having for our dinner?everytime also he made the decision for our dinner coz i don have any idea on the food if u wanna asked my opinion i will telling u can i skip for it?sure he don allowed i do so then no choice he had to decide himself...so he suggested to go bek the same steamboat restaurant at bukit timah there coz last time he was tiring and didnt took much food there so today planned to go bek there again...we ordered the same types of soup~~laksa and herbal chicken soup..another vegetarian meal coz i only took the veggies ingredient without the meat coz i don really like to eat meat..he eat less again coz feel unwell don know y look like he more weak than me always got healthy problem..suddenly he was feeling very cold wanna went bek car took the jacket for him but he rejected so i asked him to drink some hot soup there but no use also..don know wut i can helped him coz he look like suffer and his eye also red in colour..i think he didnt wear the goggle when swimming...worried about him i think he don know tat coz i never told him my feeling..he always said i am black heart didnt care him but always care more for my frens..actually he wanna brought me to henderson wave again but then he left his camera in the office so we canceled it so we went to west coast again..the place tat we always there...we have a lot of sweet memories there..i like to hug him coz will make me feel very comfortable and safe coz got somebody will protect me...i was too small gas coz i am mad on him when i keep on repeating tat i wanna went bek but he asked me don so early went bek accompanied him for a while..keep on drag until 3 smt..i really feel very tired and sleepy and a bit angry..open the car door planned to go bek myself..end up he asked me to sleep and closed the eye he was sending me bek now...on the way bek i did not wan to talk any words with him..he knows i am angry but don know the reason coz i did not wan to tell him..DD i'm sorry about tat i know i am too small gas on tat but i really feel tired if continue like tat.. maybe i am too selfish juz think of myself..i think whole nite he was worrying about me when sent me bek he sms me n telling me tat he will waiting me downstair and will fetching me to work tml morning..i reply him said tat no need asked him went bek office have a good rest coz i know he also very tired odi coz whole day only rest for half an hour..asked him don worried about me i am fine...He really waiting me until morning n sent me to work...we having breakfast together in my office downstair i did not eat anything juz ordered a cup of hot coffee coz morning time i odi ate the oat + apple n some slices of biscuits until now still full haven start to digest yet juz wan to accompany someone~~

Chapter 13~~ice age 3

DD was calling me early of the morning..nowadays he always called me in the morning coz he said when wake up from sleep he start to miss me wanna heard my voice..we chit chat on phone for a while coz tat time my boss was in the office i don dare to talk for more...until the noon time around 3 smt only saw him online..he said morning time he always not stay in the office coz too boring wanna find someone yum cha..he was facing some problem and i know his mood was not good feel dissapointed to his workers..he didnt told me through msn, he said after meet me will telling me wut was happening..i am sure something muz related to his work..nowadays he got a lot of thing to think i know he was stress all the time but he didnt show or shared all the thing to me coz don wanna i am worried about him..all tis thing i know tat y i seldom wanna go n disturb or give trouble to him..tried my best not to give him any more stress..sometimes he told me smt regarding about his job but then i cant help him also he look like wanna cried i saw tis condition i also got some influenced but i need to control myself if not both of us will crying there..i don know how to console him but at least i can be his good listener and shared all his things and problems..no matter wut thing happened or wut decision he had done i will always support him..100% loyalty supporter..cheer up DD everything should be alright...coz no difficulty in the world, only depend on how u solved it..gambateh~~We went jurong point for our 2nd time movie!!ice age 3 such a nice and funny movie.so cute the elephant inside tat movie..like it~~thanks DD for the movie and the popcorn combo..

Chapter 12~~2nd weekend

our 2nd weekend was planning to go to jb..I wanna went jb to meet up my sis coz from the day they went jb i still haven got the chance and time to chit chat with them always rush for the time..he told me that if i went there maybe he also wanna stay there but he will rent a hotel for a nite if not b4 12am he need to go bek to spore coz i do not allowed he went bek late..i will be worrying about him since he odi get involved so many times in accident although every time no ppl get injured but not everytime will be so lucky..Around 3am smt early morning he was calling me i was sleeping tat time so i did not pick up the phone..around 5am smt he called me again i also didn't pick up..when i wake up in the early morning coz i need to prepare everything before going out to work juz saw tat missed call...9am smt he was calling me n told me tat he get involved in the accident yesterday...scare me i tot wut happened to him y suddenly like tat...i know him only 3 weeks he odi get involved 3 accidents odi..tis time he told me coz he feel sleepy while driving and suddenly 1 dog across the road then he was shocked wanna drive away from the dog n turn the sterring to the other side..accidentally his car bang to the road divider..coincidence the police car was passing there so he need to make the police report n do some check up see whether he took any alcohol...luckily everything done so he said cant fetch me after work n i cant went to his office after tis so i changed my plan to shopping coz i also wanna to go n buy my hair conditioner...i bought a dog n pig soft toy for him..as promised i done tis for him if not he always keep on asking for the dog...after tat i went bek have a short snap too tired odi ...he came n fetched me around 5pm smt he was very hungry coz from morning until noon he still haven even took 1 meal juz drink some plain water only..pity him again..my sis was calling me asked me wanna took dinner together or not coz they also not cooked on tat day...actually they suggested to eat the fried hokkien noodle somewhere around the skudai are but i seem like don have interested on it...he was suggesting to eat japanese food but i know some of my sis don like to eat japanese food..end up our final decision was going to ajisen which is located inside the sutera mall..after dinner we went to pasar malam bought some small snack and to the next round yum cha in the tree place...i said i can took my sis's bf car direct bek to his house so he no need to fetch me bek..he can went to search for the hotel but then he insisted wan to send me bek coz i know 1 thing coz he wanna to fully use of the time with me don wanna waste it..i know we only have a short time to meet together everyday but then i think tat was enough odi..coz we had to meet up everyday..when he reached the hotel room he was calling me and chit chatting..i asked him to sleep early coz whole day he never sleep odi asked him to take more rest if not tml got no more energy..actually he don wanna to join for badminton..we make a deal for it..he said if i went to take the photo album then he will going for badminton..tis wut the deal i make with him...he knows i wanna chat with my sis so juz chat for a while..he sms n told me will come n fetched me tml 8.30am in the morning for bfast...but the next day morning around 8.30am i was calling him for a few times but he didn't pick up so i know he still sleeping..so we went breakfast for ourself..my sis suggesting to go sutera mall after tat...he called me when we r inside the carrefour in sutera mall he said he was waiting outside the carrefour so i was going to find him..walked for a big round didn't saw his shadow.My hp credit going to expired odi i still haven reload for it so cant called out to him luckily he was calling me when he cant found me...yeah finally i got him..i asked him whether wan to take any bfast or not..end up he only bought the herbal egg as i know tat egg is his favourite..i bought 2 for my sis also..we saw the lee brand biscuit doing some promotion there...my sis seem like wanna to eat tat biscuit so i juz bought 1 big package later planned to share with them..he paid for it...after that he brought me to the new house area in the perling area..he told me last time he got come n visit for their show room 400k++ fully furnished but the area not so convenient if u don have any transport..so he did not bought it..i was cooking the lunch for him juz simple veggie and fried fish with porridge...we went for badminton after tat luckily he can joined us i tot he juz went there n saw us play only...some of my frens was going to watch movie later on so he knows i like to sing k so he suggesting wanna go sing k after badminton coz we also don have any idea for our dinner better juz went to sing k with their free dinner buffet no need headache for our dinner...actually we planned to play bowling at the beginning but 1 of my sis don wan n don have interested on it if we went there later she will get bored..after sing k session met up with other frens who going for movie then we proceeded to the yum cha session again...i wanna to go bek early coz feel tired n sleepy some more tml need to work also..he promised me will let me go bek early next time wont always stay until midnite..he send me to my house downstair and also send me up to my house coz last time i got mentioned my fren will always send me bek n saw me until reached home only he will went bek so tis time he always send me bek until outside of my house only he went bek...happy~~don know tis feeling can last longer or not or now juz in tis honeymoon stage tat y he will doing tis on me maybe after a few months will not take care of me anymore...

Chapter 11~1st dating & Movie

Actually he was asking me for a few times can i canceled my bangkok trip coz he was worrying about me..i got told him tat my coll odi canceled to go there and he cant go with me coz he need to bz for his work impossible for him to leave singapore for quite a few days.He said if 2 to 3 days still can but 5 days he cant make it..he knows my sis's bday was fall on 29.06.2009 coz i got told him tat wanna celebrate for it actually wanna went jb on tat day but then both of us was tiring n after he finished his work the day was kinda late..my jb sis told us they not celebrate for it also..then we juz went to west coast again our 1st dating place (29.06.2009)..he asked me wut i wan to buy for my sis i said i don know coz don have any idea on it..so he suggested maybe give a angpau more realistic i said our house don have such culture. Some more we r still single how can we give ang pau got pantang 1...then he said maybe an air ticket so i said or bangkok air ticket since he worrying about my bangkok trip if asked my sis go with me then he will not be so worried at least got someone accompanying me..we planned to give my sis a big surprise..he asked me to ask for my sis passport no n expired date by tml..juz told her tat i wanna participated some contest but only foreigner allowed to participate..then he helped me to book for it..after finished booking he show me the slip on webcam i am so happy tat time..thanks dd..he always care of me coz will give me the priority to choose something or go somewhere..he always followed my decision wont forced me to do something that i don like...gave me freedom too tis wut i like...actually he do asked me y i will choose him??actually i also don know y i will choose him sometimes i juz feel tat he is the one tat always will look after and care me more..tis few days he always told me tat very miss me n love me , he also don know the reason..he said he don have such feeling b4 although he had 3 gf b4 but tis is his 1st time got such feeling..1 day n 1 day worst always 'bu she de' let me go bek .If cant meet me or wanna send me bek tat time is the bad time he need to pass..sometimes i do suspect how good and how attracted i am until he will feel so deep love on me?it is i had no enough confident on him or on myself?i don think i got such big power can make ppl like tat ~~we do our 1st time movie in jurong point..tis few days he was busying for his work so i don wanna to give trouble to him..i juz booked the movie ticket online~~ transformer (01.07.2009) in jurong point..so i asked him muz attend the movie session don left me alone go in the cinema..he reached my place around 7 smt then we were going to have our dinner in bentobox...he bought me the popcorn combo..nowadays he keeps on hardworking wanna to feed me to gain more weight coz he said i too slim odi look not tat nice need to eat more..so always bring me to eat i said if later i really bcome fat then u will throw me inside the dustbin..he said for other ppl he don know but for him he wont do so..i felt very cold while inside the cinema although i got brought the scarf..he knows i am very cold so he was holding my hand n tried to give some warm to me until finished the movie...actually i planned to buy present on tat movie day but then time was not allowed for me to do so..the next day i was telling him to bring me bought my fren's bday present..then he said wanna passed smt to my sis asked me don go for jogging if not later will be late bek again..after passing the stuffs to my sis we will going to find his fren having dinner together..he always knows wut i ate so he ordered a plate of fried mihun for me...he suggested i bought the photo frame for my fren coz we seldom meet each other maybe can juz put in our photo then let her have a good memory on it..after dinner he said wanna brought me to leisure mall searched for something..when reached there we cant even found a present or gift shop...sigh...not many stuffs there give me a big problem don know wut to buy now..he was suggesting to choose from the small stalls there see whether can found smt special there...when i saw 1 thing i decided to buy it...Dan~ Dan~ Dan~scarf yeah is the present tat i wan to buy but i don know wut design n colour i need to choose..so i juz look around for it finally i got a 2 diff colour scarf for her pinkie in colour...luckily my fren like the pink colour...the next day was my fren' s bday he cant send me go coz he got smt to bz so i went there to meet up my fren after bek time i asked him to fetch us bek coz not tat early odi n somemore far from my house i lazy to take long distance journey by mrt i will fall slept later...after sending all my frens he was fetching me bek home while on the way i was asking him whether took his dinner or not..he told me tat he got no mood to eat only took bfast from morning until now..so i asked him to go n took something be sending me bek...mcdonald here we r..after finished it he fetched me bek home..juz chit chatting in my downstair n walked here n there..he said very funny like tat dating in the downstair..i was planning to go to his office on tml(saturday) he also agreed that...i asked him bcareful when going bek coz he look like sleepy odi n some more feeling unwell again...pity and worried about him..