Chapter 59~~LosT mY WaY

When DD can really change his habit?i don know when only i can get use to it but so far until now i still uncomfortable if promise thing never do tat only will make me sad and dissapointed like giving me the hope at the first and end up spoil my hope too..always only use mouth say...well, say who oso can but when talk about action all bcome silent...like the case my fren told me her fren oso like tat...always hao lian in front of them but come to the realistic she didnt do anything in front of them for wut she had saying..i hate tis kind of ppl...i really lost my confident to this relationship don know it will be a good ending but i do really hope it will be~~i don wan to hurt anybody include myself..when i juz can ending tis story?really lost my way~~~~maybe i really think too much or too love DD?it would make myself suffer but anyway thanks to all those fren that care and give some advise or support when i am in trouble..i really appreciated it~~

Chapter 58~~ReaSoN & ExcuSe

Hate:
1. Not telling me the truth.
2. Take closer photo like wut u say b4 only wife and gf can took such photo.
3. Lying (hate the most).
4. Wearing the couple T shirt.

Consequences:
1. No mood to work.
2. No appetite to eat.
3. When it's appear again in mind, tear will come out.
4. No more trust.
5. All my dream burst.
6. Leave a scar forever.
7. No confident.

Chapter 57~~a BiG SuRpRisE

Fast~~fasT..cny juz passed and my long holiday all gone now need to collect all my mood bek to work place...tis cny really got no cny feel and whole week i juz stay at home~~boring boring.miss someone~~~DD told me he will be coming on 6th day of cny coz he need to start working on 4th day of cny...he got no choice to come early...everyday i oso wan to call him coz he said tis few days he keeps on headache juz for worying to him but then eveytime nobody pick up my call~~everytime oso make me dissapointed but luckily he did call me bek when he saw the miss call~~he said he was sleeping all time...3rd day of cny..early morning i wake up odi got i know my phone got msg in keep on notice me so i wake up n c~~it's a msg from dd...the time is 7 plus..y he wake up so early today~~so i don care later on juz call him bek~~i was preparing to go our association event for cny~~i miss his call so he called to my sis's hp and my sis pass to me..he said where i am ..i told him i was preparing to go out, he said tis few days got any activities i told him tonite we will celebrate aunty's 50th bday and doing bbq at home...he said ok he will come now..at 1st i really not believe to wut he said...when i go to downstair and went to behind kitchen..my aunty was calling me, she said hey mei zi ur fren coming~~u not say he will be coming on 6th day of cny meh...i a bit shock who's tat it is he was coming...i went to outside and c wut is going on..he's really coming without any notice~~say the truth i really feel happy tat time~~so he accompanied me for a few days in my kampung..we didnt go anywhere most of time stay at home..suddenly he received a call from office saying tat need to somebody to work so maybe he need to go bek on 4thday of cny but i don allowed~~after tat he settled it~~as wut we had planning early 6th day of cny we went bek to spore~~coz dd need to start work on sun...but then when he send me bek tat time he did make call to jurong island site, they told him tml cant start work yet coz got some event there so his job canceled..yeah 1 more free day he can accompany me~~we planned to watch movie 1st n then went jb sis's house coz my sis them oso not so early will be bek they all went for movie too...haiz too bad we cant get any nice place in cinema so we went jb early...having our dinner in city square jb~~sushi king...n went it's cinema c whether any ticket for the movie..another dissapointed...we went 'yong che he' around jb area~~having porridge as supper with sis them and went bek home...the next day morning when i open my facebook something was happening~~i didnt expect thing...a girl i don know her upload her photo with dd in facebook...not tat normal photo is some intimate photo~~but can c it's a old photo~~so i start get angry on DD..wut is relationship between them...after a while we went bek spore~~vivocity...he keep on pursuing me and ask me give him 3 days he will give me a clear and satisfied answer..temporary i forgive him~~~the next day i need to start working...as usual when reach office i was having my bfast while log in my facebook...tis girl appear in my facebook layout again coz she got some same fren as me in her list so she will appear in my layout...i click inside again~~tis time more worst..u know wut i saw~~~a newest photo which i saw dd was wearing a pink colour shirt which we bought from bangkok n he told me he odi gave to his fren how come he had 1~~~and another photo he is wearing the new shirt which bought by his mum...i know tat was a new 1 nad took on cny...my heartbroken really really sad don know how to describe~~~my tear come out from my eye...i direct call to dd ask him where he was going during cny...he told me ahbi's house i said except ahbi's house le...he said another fren's house~~he told me b4 so close photo only wife and gf can take with but tis proved that thegirl sure got relation with him odi~~my fren give me some advice ask me to take the girl phone num...i call and ask her...she told me they r nth she upload those photo juz wan to find bek her old fren coz she was preparing for marriage tis coming august...i did ask her wut i wan and she did sms me too whether though phone or facebook...i give her 1 day time to delete all those photo..she promised she will do tat and told me her husband was on the way to find dd settle the problem...yesterday we were argue on tis thing...i wan all my question mark had the answer~~another lying..lying...i said b4 i hate lying.....he keep on 'qiu' me don leave him alone coz i said i wanna time let us think about it...he said need time mean i will leave him odi..so he used hammer to get himself injured and when send me bek talk a lot to me like theworld come to the end~~he wanna go to die like wut he told me b4...without me he really will go n die~~but wut i can do??i admit i still love him but love not mean i can forget anything..juz coz love i can make myself suffer i am not tat stupid~~so i got no choice i wont allowed he do smt injured himself...so i forgive him but then i lose all my trust on him...really a hard time for us~~~i hope all thing can be smooth and the same thing wont be happen again...but it's really make me learn a lot and beware next time~~~no trust no love tis wut i worry now....

Chapter 56~~HaPpY ChiNesE NeW YeaR & HaPpY VaLenTinE's To Dd

So sad our 1st year valentine's day i cant celebrate with DD coz it fall on same day of 1st day chinese new year...everyone need to go bek own hometown...DD need to work tat y he cant follow me bek~~before that i was so exciting coz can go bek hometown odi but tml is the day tat i can go bek odi but feel like not so willing to go bek~~i will miss my DD for a few days~~sob**sob~~suddenly miss him now when i type tis page of blog..oh gosh too bad he is not beside me some more quite a long time didnt chat with him in msn..i know he was bz with his work tat y i oso seldom wanna to disturb him let him concentrate his work,fast fast finish his work so tat only he got extra time to accompany me more~~yesterday nite he come over my place late around 10 plus and he brought me to our 1st time meeting place~~west coast mcdonald really can remind and refresh some sweet memory there~we like the food and scenery there and of coz tis is the place that we knew each other well and start our friendship there..pity my DD tis few days he need to pass the time himself..GG sayang i apologized to him coz i really cant make it the time to accompany him~~sorry about tat let him alone~~but i do hope DD can miss me more when he cant c me tis few days~~don worry u will always in my mind when i was playing, eating or sleeping~~a new year coming wishing DD can success in his career and happy always~~love and muacksss~~